October 8, 2013

It’s been nearly eight months since my previous post, and much has happened since that time.

In some ways, things prior to the September Equinox were very volatile, the energies really restructuring so very much, new things came into my life only to be exposed as mere resonances of possible things to come and false starts — and just a shit-ton of disappointments in my personal life. My beliefs, my hopes, my dreams: all of them are rather in tatters, having been blown apart completely. (And I understand this can be something necessary and integral, so I “get it,” but that does not minimize the pain involved of seeing your every understanding of what was supposed to be — through clairvoyant and other means — simply be ripped entirely away. After seven years of daily mental reinforcement of “YES! This IS how it will be!”, it’s not the “story” anymore, and I don’t have an explanation or replacement tale. I just am. Here and now, not really caring too much anymore about what’s ahead.)

On the brightest, lightest side of things, the reunification process with my son, who will be eight years old in one month, has been successful. We shall be moving forward into a regular parenting time plan and schedule, and I can resume being his mother, in full, on my own time, with no therapist overseeing the process. At least that is what I can project into what semblance of a future I “see” (and that is not so far ahead, truth be told).

But then there is my TF, and how horribly things stand with him. I have had to stop all communication with him because of the deep, deep damage that has come about inside me from his falling out of love with me and rejecting me in his life. The “running stage” — as I understand there may be stages to this “reunification.” On the good side, this rupture has meant that I can reunify with my son, but on the down-side, it appears all the things that my higher self communicated to me in 2006 and 2007 are just plain flat out *wrong* — or, perhaps were “readjusted” because of free will and the overall global ascension process. I am not sure. It looks from all indications that this rupture, running, and separation is a permanent state of things to come. I’m getting no indication except to let go as best I can.

Sure, it is not over until the “fat lady sings,” but I believe I am at the point where I actually *should not* hope for a further reunification with my TF because to do so would be making myself into a doormat and into someone who believes it is okay for someone to treat her as “less.” Unhealthy is unhealthy, even in a TF connection. And I deserve more. I deserve an evolved relationship, not one where someone checks out entirely from the relationship and treats me with disrespect and dishonor.

I just wrote this to SunshineAngelina, whose comments I had seen on Denise’s new blog High Heart Life – her TF died this past June.

First, I am so sorry about the loss of your TF on “this side” of life/living.

I, too, have been living out a TF story in this ascension process for the past seven years. I have been ripped away from my TF in this dimension, not by death but by life/life choices/stages of the TF reunion. I actually married him in 2011 (he’s my third husband) but he lives in another country (he’s American but his whole life and work have been out of the country for over 20 years) and I had to come back to the U.S in 2012 (through uncontrollable and complicated circumstances). He has decided he [is] not in love with me anymore and that he [cannot] and [will not] join me here in the U.S. We’ve been through a lot of hell in the past years, and he still does not recognize me as his TF. He’s currently trying to date other women, and has a crush on someone he hopes to ask out.

At this point, I am more or less resigned that this is a stage of the reunification where he has run from me and the relationship, perhaps permanently in this lifetime/this timeline. Also, he has a lot of work that needs to be done on his own even still — and probably me, too. Denise’s latest post at High Heart Life has helped me understand more about why it’s separation here and now. This part has to be walked alone.

I have to say this: The TF journey is kind of a horrible one, from this side of it! (Meaning: in duality, in this dimensional timeline on earth — the one that is changing, but currently still appears to be the same.) I don’t know what is worse: to know and have the love of your TF and him talking to you, but having crossed over, and no ability to feel or touch physically, or to know your TF is still walking the planet but does not want anything more to do with you… It’s all pretty bad from this side of it when TF’s are separated, for whatever reasons. It brings back all those “separation issues” from incarnation, in my opinion.

I’m so sorry you have to go through what you are. But I do understand it, in a way.

At this point, I realize that in fact, due to the issues of my TF, I am better on my own to increase my own frequency at this point. There were many ways in which it was not a healthy relationship and was very imbalanced in my giving more to it and his giving less (not so much his “fault” — just the issues that have been driving him for years. I’ve been doing conscious healing of my issues for years, and he just started a short time ago). From being with him, I learned a lot about boundaries and taking care of myself. He found sobriety from alcoholism. All in all, it’s growth we both needed. It’s not been for nothing.

I have come to a similar conclusion it seems you have from reading your comments and posts here: the only way to meet again in wholeness is to pass forward into the new and into the next thing, whatever that is. Sometimes I think I will never get over meeting and being married to my TF, but not with him now. But then other times I realize there is a hope and future with the knowledge that I connected with him for a time, and now may face a few decades doing something else, even in the transition to another earth dimensional frequency. I will be okay being on my own. There is a future, and it can be a good one.

In any case, my biggest hope for you and for me, having once known our TFs but now not being able to be with them in the here and now: I hope that we move forward into love and into light, knowing that we are also okay on our own, progressing always forward, guided by that love and light.

My heart goes out to you, and I hope that you can continue to process your losses and gains with the crossing over of your TF.

With love,

Calliope the Muse

The funny thing is, some of the TF energy was surrounding me this past spring (March into May) and prompted me into a summertime relationship (May to August) with someone I have known online for several years. It developed very quickly and equally devolved rapidly (it became rather a nightmare, in fact, with his inability to let go — some real mental and heart issues there — and he was harassing me after I said I did not want to pursue the relationship further). The worst thing was I HOPED, and those hopes were completely let down. It seemed this relationship could be an answer to the separation with my TF: that there would and could be a future with someone else. In fact, all it did was highlight how much I miss the good parts of the person who is my TF here in this lifetime, and how I hoped for that story to come true. It was a pretty depressing realization, and I have been living with the fallout of that through August and September. I hit a huge wall of grief with regards to my separation from my husband/TF. And I got the definitive words from him that he does not want to stay married, and he wants to be with someone else.

I really don’t know where I am going from here. I have to say this: I am just fine with that “blank slate” on the one hand. I really cannot let go of much more in this lifetime. I think letting go of my TF story is bringing me to have the ability to be that person free of ALL ballast to move forward to the next thing in this ascension shift. It’s the “last bastion” to fall.

But I also have no desire to stay here, no desire to move forward with 3D Planet Earth. I love my children, but they already have had to separate from me, too — I’m only back in their lives because it became obvious I was supposed to be. Of course, this is not a suicidal thought: I am where I am, and I know by now to change that through a selfish act like suicide is a fool’s errand. But what I mean is that I think I am ready. Ready for the new, whatever it is. There is nothing of the old that is holding me back any more.

I hope at some point I will see this as a gift. The only remaining thing is the deep sadness and grief that I feel. Maybe once that is passed through, then I really will be free to create some kind of a future for myself. But as for now, I simply exist, and try to pass the time as best I can doing what is necessary to survive in 3D.

Copious amounts of watching the new Doctor Who has quite literally saved me. Traveling with a Time Lord and seeing all the vastness of the universe, plus the love he has for the Earth and her people has helped me quite a lot, actually.

That’s all. Don’t know if anyone is actually reading this stuff, but it sure has helped to put things out on virtual paper today.

Staying Tethered

Tree / Pleiades / Hyades

Flickr user StarmanMike – photo link here - used under Creative Commons License NC ND 

On Terra [Gaia] in this fateful hour
I place all Heaven with its power
the sun with its brightness
the snow with its whiteness
the fire with all the strength it hath
the lightning with its rapid wrath
the winds with their swiftness along their path
the sea with its deepness
the rocks with their steepness
the earth with it starkness
all these I place
With God’s [Gaia's] almighty help and grace
between myself and the powers of darkness.

Source

I have not written since early December as the energies from December forward to Imbolc, on February 1st, have been most incredible, and there have been shifts and changes primarily at the fourth and fifth dimensional levels, but ones that definitely are impacting the third dimensional level. All of this has made it difficult to write here in this space. But today, I was brought back to renew what is here, make some changes to whom I follow, and also to link in some important messages. Mostly I put these posts here for myself, not for others, but if someone finds benefit in what I have linked, the more are blessed.

I have done some major housecleaning here today at Calliope the Muse HQ: removing things no longer of a resonant energy and making a few tweaks here and there, including using a new theme on WordPress.

A little post-Imbolc freshening as we await the vernal equinox, Ostara, on March 20.

Current Energies

I read today’s Oracle Report for February 16 and 17 (there is currently an error written with the dates —  this is the second blog I have read today which has done that! Timeline shifts!). I will copy it here, but be aware that to find it after today’s posting date, you will need to look in the archives for the specific reference that is made.

Saturday February 16 and Sunday February 17

Crescent Moon Phase – Moon in Taurus
Everyone needs to be fully locked in to your center and grounded to the planet. Picture yourself as a gold or white cylinder of light that can sway and swing, but is completely tethered. Know that you are fully protected and shielded. You may have a shock, surprise, or insight that will take time to understand. You may need to use the skills of an archer to maneuver the energy.

Please join me in visualizing a flock of thousands of owls flying through the sunset sky. It would be even better if you go outside at sunset wherever you are on the planet and picture it.

Please understand the power of this day.

I absolutely and intuitively understand the power of this day.

Barn Owl

Flickr user Brian Scott - photo link hereused under Creative Commons License NC ND 

I woke up with a very strange and tense energy dominating, but since I have come online to read and connect to the sources which are now most resonant for me, I’m feeling tethered, I have my Artemis bow and arrow at the ready, and feel more calm.

There is definitely an edge to the day, however.

A second source which has been very helpful, but which I will not copy here out of deep respect for the author, Karen Bishop, per her request. Karen has been a mountain guide/Sherpa of wisdom to me for just over five years.

In my own words, Karen writes in her post from yesterday, February 15, 2013, that we are on a “transitional bus” not quite yet there, but very much on our way. We are completely disconnected from what is past, uprooted from all that bound us to it, but in a “new, strange, and temporary territory” as we travel on this bus. The energetic symptoms Karen describes very much mirror my own in these past few days, and I find it hard to keep breathing calmly.

Yet the life I am still living in the third dimension is present with me, and like the Sword of Damocles hanging by a single hair of a horse’s tail, as Cicero puts it: “…there can be nothing happy for the person over whom some fear always looms.” (see Wikipedia link)

I work hard at banishing the fear.

Some things have been progressing very nicely.

On the most excellent side of things, at long last, next week, I see my 7-year-old son for the first time in four years and nine months! This is very long in coming, and part of me expects the axis to tilt with this reunification.

I am still eating, have a place to live, clothes to wear, fresh water to safely drink, people around me who love me, and for these things I am deeply grateful.

My fears are founded — there are a couple of earthly third dimensional things that are deeply pressing, and which, if the following were to happen, would completely go away with a financial collapse of the country and/or world economy. I confess: this collapse, while potentially horrific for humans in the developed world (how can it truly get worse in the undeveloped and war-torn worlds? They at least already know how to negotiate daily chaos), would make all of the problems I have dissolve in an instant. If it were to be known that the US of A, Inc. is an illegal institution, it would invalidate all of the things that have caused me to be in the situation I am in. Et voilà — POOF — it would all become null and void. In the meantime, the thing that is pressing me the most is that I am not at all secure financially. This does not bother me at all personally, necessarily; I have learned to do without. But it is the legal debt I owe that is pressing upon me in this moment, and if I don’t come up with about another $800 in the next week, I will have my driver’s license suspended because of non-payment.

Through the grace of family and friends, I made a payment last December that kept the same from happening back then. The payment stalled the process until now.

I have been applying for jobs left and right, and am meeting with very firmly closed doors on any and all attempts. Strangely so, for in the past, in my old existence, whenever I needed employment, I sent out the vibrational call, something always came along, even if at the last possible moment, and usually through a friend or acquaintance, or a chance meeting or some serendipitous word-of-mouth.

The time is pretty much 11:51. I have just nine minutes, less now, as the clock is ever-ticking, to come up with an earthly plan.

And it is just not happening.

I know this is perhaps what is meant to be right now, and there are still “nine more minutes” — the rest of this week, and really until the 28th, but no longer.

I’m not so worried about having a suspended license in terms of life. I can still get to the store. I can still take a bus to important places, including to a potential job, although not driving would narrow the possibilities significantly.

What concerns me is being able to drive to the appointments to see my son with his reunion therapist — he is 1.5 hours north of my city by car. It seems as if the timing is that just as I have reuntied with him, my ability to drive and see him at the appointments will be stopped. I don’t have anyone who can take me there during the appointment times. Not that I know of, yet. There are no buses that go there, either, except perhaps Greyhound, but that would be very, very complicated for a 50 minute appointment.

I deeply would like this problem solved to stay in touch with my son.

Right now, as well, I put an energetic bubble around this post, around my life. I claim sovereignty as an angelic and god-being embodied on earth, with the abilities to solve this problem and protect this space. Once more, I call upon the powers of Terra in this fateful hour and place the powers of Heaven between myself and the powers of darkness.

I’m ready for the bus to be there, but I think we will be on the road for a little while longer. Maybe just a few more weeks, but I don’t think things will really be in place until later in the year.

But I would dearly like to see a breakthrough in this particular juncture of the bus ride.

On the Road, AZ

Flickr user biotour13 - photo link here - used under Creative Commons License NC ND

In conjunction with the Karen Bishop post referenced above, there are two more articles that are resonant with similar information and the same frequency. They are the Aisha North post from today, February 16, 2013, and the Gaia Portal post from yesterday, February 15, 2013:

The manuscript of survival – part 269

Today we would like to delve a little deeper into the physical and mental fallout from all of these energetic shifts that are coming your way. We know that for most of  you, these can be more than a little difficult to swallow at times, because they can literally render you unable to do anything at times except exist. (Aisha North and the constant companions)

Restlessness… due to significant Alterations in DNA coding

Restlessness may be a characteristic of current sensations in the 3D body. Specific changes and upgrades to DNA familial patterns requires significant alterations in DNA coding.

These DNA upgrades allow ease of transition out of 3D dysfunctional familial patterns and into Galactic family connections. Such upgrades are necessary for full disclosure process to proceed.

I am feeling the contents of both of these posts so keenly in these past 24 hours. There is much, much more going on with me in my life than I have mentioned here, but these two posts tap into the energy of what is happening, and sum up a great deal of the energetic flow of what is going on with me.

Finally, I will reference the most recent post of Denise LeFay on Transitions.

Post SHIFT: Winter 2013

As many of you know, when I go quiet as I have over these past few weeks, it’s because I’m deep in another important Ascension related transition and I won’t write much until I have lived/embodied enough of it myself and started to get a decent conscious understanding of what’s happened and is still happening. This is just how this Process works for me; I’ve got to live and embody it physically, then review the recent events, my perceptions, issues, insights, visions, and whatever old or new physical and/or emotional aches and pains that I’ve been dealing with — then I’ll write about what I’ve discovered on my own from having lived it.

(click the link above to continue to read the rest of the post)

This is very much what I am doing here. I have not gone completely quiet in my 3D life. I am not living in isolation, but trying to do the best that I can being on this transitional bus, undergoing recoding, trying to keep my shit together on the face of things.

But the deeper inner work that has dominated my life, the “polarity integration” that is my work to do, for the past six years (since October 2006, consciously, but since long before that, too), is intensifying even as I feel myself letting go of this existence in so very many real and tangible ways. I know I am headed towards something very new, and very different. As Karen Bishop writes, there is a new foundation being laid, and soon we can build upon it.

How soon?

How soon is now?

When you say it’s gonna happen now,

Well, when exactly do you mean?

See, I have already waited too long,

And all my hope is…

Thankfully, all my hope is not gone. I know the thing that I must do is stand, and then stand, and then stand again. Perseverance is the ticket on this particular bus ride.

Be well, one and all. If I feel moved again to chronicle the happenings of the Muse, I will.

Calliope the Muse

The darkest hour is just before the dawn.

It’s kind of a banal platitude, and I don’t even know if it is something scientifically true. However, right now, this is my greatest hope.

At this very moment, in my psyche, I feel like the Hero in the Hero’s Journey and standing at the edge of the abyss, if I am not already deep down in it.

Wait. Strike that. I just read this. Oh yeah, definitely at this point.

Anyway, I have just had to confront something that is the apex of the past five years. It was the confrontation of confrontations, and I had to do it totally alone. I know I had spiritual support from those who love me, but I was physically very much A.L.O.N.E. in this.

I think, though, that this day could have been the very culmination of this lifetime’s lessons. I always used to be afraid to do things alone, and here I had to confront an authority of authorities and also defend myself in a neutral, self-possessed, calm and intelligent manner, and I believe I did so. And I did it all by myself.

Yes, the more I think about it, today was that day of atonement:

Atonement with the Father
In this step the person must confront and be initiated by whatever holds the ultimate power in his or her life. In many myths and stories this is the father, or a father figure who has life and death power. This is the center point of the journey. All the previous steps have been moving in to this place, all that follow will move out from it. Although this step is most frequently symbolized by an encounter with a male entity, it does not have to be a male; just someone or thing with incredible power. For the transformation to take place, the person as he or she has been must be “killed” so that the new self can come into being. Sometime this killing is literal, and the earthly journey for that character is either over or moves into a different realm.

source: Hero’s Journey – Summary of Steps

Yes, I was “killed” in many ways today, a kind of death-to-self and confrontation with the things that have frightened me most in life. I came through it.

Now, I am just hoping for one of those miracles that I was promised so long ago. It’s either the miracle of objective and real transformation of the planet, and SOON as this situation I am in is so knotted up it will take something of that scale to work it out, or it is a more personal kind of restoration. Maybe a combo of both?

I think I am writing this post more than anything as a kind of “time capsule” to open at a later date, look back on, and say, “Oh right! That is the day it was so very dark. And look where we are now!”

I truly hope so.

Thanks for reading.

Calliope the Muse

Holy Cats, We Have Convergence

This is kind of a re-blog, but I wanted to actually compose my own post with it, so I did not simply use the “reblog” button on WordPress. Keep reading to find out which blogs, okay?

I am really getting sick of actually having to type the words out one-by-one and really wish I could just “think at the page” et voilà, the words would appear, but we aren’t there yet, kids, so I have to old-school type this stuff out and it is coming at me too fast to keep up.

Anyone else feel that these days?

Okay, the skinny, in outline form, by date, and with not as much as I really could say about the profundity of much I have felt about things in the past few days:

November 6, with the Mercury Retrograde: I realize that I am experiencing yet another timeline shift. I recognize that time is looping and has been for quite some time now. I do see the “glitches in the Matrix” all the time; it’s one reason I realized I am a “timeline worker” (see previous post about that on this blog – not going to look it up right this moment to link it in, but I have, what, like FIVE posts here or something? Should not be too hard to find on your own. Just sayin’. ;-) ).

November 7, my littlest son’s 7th birthday. His numbers are significant: 11-7-2005. Not only was it his “golden birthday” and I had to miss it, I now realize the degree and extent the archon/ankle-biters are interfering in the process of reunification. Yesterday I realized just how much, and how it is going to be up to me to “hack the Matrix” on this one, I just don’t know how, yet. Emphasis on “yet”.

November 9, did significant clean-up work, both physical and Lightwork (not going to get into it here, but it was intense, lemme tell ya) for an alcoholic woman (getting to the end-stages with her disease) in the building next to mine. It was clearly an “as below, so above” situation (yes, reversing that on purpose). Please see Denise Le Fay’s post and a huge nod to the part about the poop in the post “Two Lightbeings Helping Two Starseeds” to get some insight on what I am talking about. Big-time convergence for me with what she writes about in that post. The veils are thinning for me, baby, and I am seeing with my inner eyes all KINDS of interesting stuff.

It really is like suddenly being able to read the green streaming symbols on the screen as the folks did in “The Matrix”, too. (By the way, I have to get out to see “Cloud Atlas.” I heard the best interview on the podcast The Nerdist by the directors of the movie, Lana and Andy Wachowski and Tom Twyker. It was Lana and Andy who created the world of “The Matrix” for the screen. Lana is awakened, for certain. Yes, she used to be “Larry.” She is amazing.)

November 10, a day when I wake up knowing I have been away while sleeping, working on my timelines. I have flashes of memory upon waking of the other timelines I am in, and know that I am absolutely knitting timelines together. I am given an insight about my youngest child as I wake up. After I awaken, I read the Oracle Report for the day (See Saturday November 10 & Sunday November 11 in the archives) and I know that I am supposed to take some kind of action in regards to my kiddo very soon. Working on it.

November 11, a day to remember. Several synchronicites occur. My sense of being a timeline worker is heightened to the point that I am seeing the convergence of timelines practically unfolding before me! It’s totally weird: I am seeing anomalies, and often literal physical OBJECTS show up from the past, ones that have been “missing” or mislaid for several years and they are back in my sphere of the node I am working in now (they just appear before me, tucked away in cabinets, in the possession of other people, and I get them back… This has been happening consistently since I got back to my hometown from the E.U. in August). This happens a lot with finding mail — actual letters, that my first ex stuck in piles of junk he has kept, and I wind up cleaning up. A couple of months ago, I found mail of mine from 2001 (lol, no kidding). This past week, I found mail from 2008. When I find these objects, my memories go back to the time and place I was when I got the mail, and it brings up issues for healing. I also recognize the ways in which time is looping, over and over, in my own personal narrative. Now that I am savvy to it, I am learning to negotiate the loops.

I read a couple of very synchronous posts today, but this one takes the convergence cake:

From the Gaia Portal, November 11, 2012:

Multiple Event Convergence as Gaia Releases

Multiple simultaneous portal openings occur at the 11-11. Such are aligned to initiate events intended to occur on separate timelines. However Gaia has requested convergence of all timelines as she releases past timeline structures and codes.

As of the 11-11-12 11:11, new Sol codes were transmitted into and throughout Gaia and all inhabitants. Codes to soften hardened one’s [sic -- "ones"], soften ancient paradigm structures, for release.

Sol has engaged each and every human on this planet and will not release until decision point of 12-12-12. All receive these new codes, and soon will understand.

Old paradigms, timelines, and ancient structures have cracked, and dissolve with the new codes embedded in Gaia. This will continue until the 12-21-12.

—————-

end of transmission

Holy cats. Holy holy cats, people! Seriously, I sat at 11:11 this morning for the entire minute, feeling my seventh chakra tingle with the transmission, no kidding. I’m not making this shit up. Not a channeler, not anyone who is in this for fame or recognition (god/dess, hell no, I do not want that at all), I really have no other agenda except to prove to myself that I am not a total nutjob and that this stuff is REAL. I felt and received the download, for sure.

So, okay, there you go. I wrote this more for me than for you because it has been a while since I have had this many things converge one upon another and all pointing to exactly who it is that I am and what the hell I am doing here.

My name is K___ in one world, Calliope the Muse in another, and a dozen other names in other worlds, too, and I am a timeline hacker.

Imagine something like Trinity in her kickass leathers and sunglasses, but instead of guns I have giant middle fingers pointed at TPTB, frakkin’ ankle-biters, and I am “gunning” them down with a giant wad of “fuck you” and a whole lot of “get into the light or get extinguished by it” cojones. Moxie. Chutzpah. Pick your adjective of choice. And to all y’all ankle-biters, it’s your choice on whether you get in or get put out.

BOOYAH!

Calliope the Muse:

Oh my goodness, this is what I have been experiencing, and it has not stopped yet, “unbearable shoulder joint pain…” At least this gives some good explanation as to why. :) Thank you, as always, Denise.

Originally posted on TRANSITIONS:

800x600 lightbeing portal First I want to Thank everyone for your well-wishes and positive energies sent my way over the past very difficult thirty-some days. Gratitude hugs to each and every one of you. ♥

When this phase started for me around July 15, 2012 I perceived “Thirty days”, meaning that it would take me at least thirty days/nights of living through this latest process. My first thought was, “Oh crap! Thirty days of this level of physical pain?” But many of us have been through far worse multiple times and for much longer already, but this time was a case of me needing to physically surrender into this situation continuously which was, at times, hard for me. I was grateful to know that the intense physical pain of this particular phase of energetic Work would come to an end in about one month. It would have been extra brutal to go through…

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Where am I at these days?

the view from my bedroom window

Greetings, Voyagers.

This is the view from the bedroom where I am currently staying. I liked in the photo how the sunlight refracted through the amethyst I have on the windowsill (maybe an orb there?). I’ve been letting the amethyst charge, and like those stickers people used to place in windows that said, in French, “ICI” to alert firefighters there were people, especially children, in rooms where the windows were, I keep the crystals there not only for protection, but as a signal to the galactic “firefighters” to say “ICI, I’m Here.” They are next to a solar-powered, crank-operated weather radio I found in the room when I moved in. Nice, huh. And that is “crank” as in “hand-turning device” not something else, haha. Because of those stickers, “ICI” was the first French word I ever learned. At present, I know many more French words, but don’t know how often I will have to practice them these days.

More on that in a moment.

If you notice in the photo, the Colorado sky is hazy and the sun is causing the clouds to glow pink. It’s almost time for sunset. Chemtrail action? No. I did see a little of that here a week or so ago, but the haze here is due to this:

esri fire map – click pic for direct to link (it changes day to day. this is a screen shot from August 15, 2012)

See how the west is burning? What we have in Colorado is the haze from the smoke blowing our way.

I have regularly been tuning into these two guys on YouTube:

dutchsinse

Suspicious0bservers

They report on planet Earth activity and other events, but have lately been focused on solar interactions and earthquakes. Often HAARP stuff, too. I wish they would share more about the fires going on, but perhaps other stories are just likely to get more attention right now. I was not even aware that there were so many fires until a family member told me that the unusually hazy skies were because the western U.S. is ablaze. It even smells like smoke outside. Very faint whiffs breeze through the window when the wind is blowing just so.

So where am I now and what am I doing?

Well, here is my woo-woo take on what’s been going on.

Alas. I just spent about three hours writing 3,000 words. I realized re-reading the story I wrote so far that I don’t know if I can post the information here, yet. I’ve saved it, but it is not getting posted here just now.

I can say this much. I had been living in the E.U. for four years until just two weeks ago. A child custody and child support issue in my life could no longer be ignored. My passport was taken by the U.S. government in May because I owe a huge amount of support in Colorado. There is a Federal law from 1996 that says they can do this.

The way the agreement got settled is very spurious, and involves a huge story that is very complicated.

I have had to leave my twin flame and husband back in the E.U. I have no job here. I have a place to live thanks to my first ex-husband, not the one with whom I have this problem (that’s ex No.2). I need legal assistance I am not sure how to get because I have no job and no savings and no idea of where to find a free lawyer. I’ve tried. I keep getting rejections. I know there must be one out there somewhere, but I don’t know where to look.

It is no coincidence that these things reached a peak a mere six weeks after my discovering there are such things as Archons, and that there is an entire system that keeps us entrapped. They are doing this in a last-ditch effort to try to take me out.

But I am now at a critical point where if something does not shift or move soon, I feel I am lost.

Please understand I have just spent over three hours reliving the past, and all the crazy stuff that has happened to me. I’m tired, and I have been in pain in my left shoulder for WEEKS, and it just keeps getting worse. I know, I know. I know why, but for the life of me, I can’t solve the issue yet.

All at the moment feels pressured and dark. I feel like there is no way out, which is exactly how I know it is *them* that is manipulating this, right?

Yes, I entertained for two minutes how sweet it would be to just end it here. I admit I gave in and fantasized for a moment how easy it could be to swallow some pills, go to sleep, and not wake up. But that is truthfully a completely selfish and horrible idea, and I do not want my son to be the one to find me, and I know he would be the one. I will not do that to him and to the rest that love me. I won’t give into the ankle biters who are exacerbating this situation. Bastards.

I’m just saying that I want to be released from that which I feel my higher self got me into, by my trusting her, and following her and my heart. That’s ultimately why I am in this situation. I trusted the one I thought was my divine guidance, along with my own heart. Maybe it was really them. I just don’t know right now.

What I do know is that I need a solution to this problem quite seriously, and soon. If it gets worse, I could be imprisoned, no joke. I don’t really think they would do that to me (meaning: the state or a judge — they want me to get a job and pay the huge amount, not just languish in jail. And it seems a huge amount to me because I literally have nothing right now. A couple hundred dollars in the bank, truly. The amount I owe could just about buy an E-class Mercedes Sedan).

So there you go. It’s why I sit here and type in a small room in Colorado, and no longer in the E.U. I know there could be very many good reasons for why I am here, but things are getting bleaker by the moment, and I need release. So many Lightworkers do.

Please, something has got to give.

That’s all I can muster for the moment. I’m going to try to get some sleep now.

Your (somewhat discouraged at the moment),

Calliope

About “all these fires” – My Two Bits

So far, my blog has touched on mostly my own personal experiences and what’s happening to me in those experiences, but I read something today, and it made me go “Hmmmmmm”and get my panties in a little bit of a twist, and I realized I could not keep silent about it.

I appreciate blogger Kauilapele. I find stuff on his blogs that helps me triangulate to my version of the “truth” about events. Like many blogs of “this” nature (alternative news, planetary Ascension, general 2012 woo-woo stuff) I read a post of his today that I felt I had to add some information to because I feel it will help bring clarity to something via evidence.

This is in regards to the post “My Last Post (Probably) About All these Fires and Outages and This One Says “This” and That One Says “That”… Related to a 7-1-12 John Kettler Post…

Please go and read the post and look at the photos before you read the rest of this one. I’ll wait.

Okay. All done? Fine. (No, really, you kinda need to go and read it, so if you cheated and just kept reading my blog anyway, GO AND READ IT. Really. Go.)

Now that you really read it, here are my thoughts to add to clarity about this information (or, as we shall see, disinformation, or at least really, really crapola “reasoning”).

In the post, KP refers to the John Kettler article which alleges “burn pattern anomalies” in the recent fires near Colorado Springs, Colorado (the “Waldo Canyon fires”), and Kettler uses links to photos of homes destroyed in California in comparison to photos of homes destroyed in Colorado to demonstrate the alleged “anomalies”.

Let it be known that KP is not necessarily agreeing with the Kettler post. He is, like me, just trying to suss out the truth by looking at various sources, just as I am trying to do. I respect KP’s approach, and this post really has nothing to do with him, but I learned about the Kettler article from his post and so that is how KP is mentioned here. I’m adding information to the issue by posting my point-of-view about what I read on KP’s post and also at the original John Kettler post.

First of all, I am from Colorado. I guess I can let that factoid out there. While I am on the down-low using a pseudonym to protect my anonymity, I am certain that there are those out there who already know who and where I am. It does not matter to me. It’s more that I want to keep the people who know me in real life from knowing how fringe I have become, haha. So, whatevs. I’m from Colorado and lived there for a great number of years.

Second, I smelled a big, stinky rat in the logic of the Kettler piece.

I have this to say right off the bat: “Burn anomalies, my ass.”

Here are the main reasons why.

There have been numerous significant fires in Colorado’s history that have burned many homes and show very similar burn patterns. (For a summary of the major wildfires in Colorado’s recent history, see this Examiner.com article.)

Error in logic numero uno: if you are going to try to show something anomalous, don’t compare apples to oranges, or Orange County! (Okay, so it was Rancho Bernardo, California, but it sounded fun to do the whole “orange” thing.)

I mean, seriously! If you are going to go around talking about “anomalies,” at least compare the damn apples to apples to see if anything “glaring” shows up! That’s, like, basic Reasoning and Data Analysis 101. Use comparable samples of data. DOH.

Just a couple of weeks earlier, there was a fire in Northern Colorado that, until the fire in and around the Springs area, was labeled the “most destructive” in Colorado to-date.  The High Park fire. (This NASA satellite photo indicates just how large the fire was. I mean “is” — I think it is still being contained, but I have not fact-checked that yet. LATER: found an article in the Denver Post from June 30, 2012 that says the fire is 100% contained). That would be one place to start, and I will get to that one in a moment.

But I think it would be cool to go back even further than that to compare and contrast.

First take a look at the Waldo Canyon fire photo Kettler referenced. Here is the link to the CNN report on the Waldo Creek fire that Kettler cites. (He said it was photo #19; it now shows up as photo #26. It’s also on Kauilapele’s post if you would rather look there.)

I looked through the CNN photos from the Waldo Canyon fire and have to say that I don’t really see anything glaringly anomalous compared to Colorado’s other fires in the past.

Let’s start with the 2000 Hi Meadow fire. This fire was near Bailey, Colorado, and I am very familiar with that area. I remember this fire well. Look through the entire photo gallery and compare it to the entire CNN one. Also, here are a couple of examples of “comparable” photos I found (in my opinion. I found these in about 10 minutes. There may be more photos that are even more “comparable” if you do a search, too).

Check out this photo here:

{2000 Hi Meadow fire. click link to go to the Denver Post gallery that is the source of this photo.}

Here’s another one:

{photo source: Denver Post. click on pic to go to the photo gallery where this photo appears.}

The Hi Meadow fire burned 10,800 acres and destroyed 51 homes.

Both of these pictures show annihilated homes and untouched trees. There is a chimney in the first photo, but not in the second. The chimney in the first photo appears to have been made with stone. I don’t know what the chimneys (if, in fact, there were any chimneys) in the homes in the photo of the Waldo Canyon fire picture that was referenced were made of.  I can say this: I have lived in homes in this area that did not have fireplaces, ergo, no chimneys! Not all mountain homes have them, especially not in newer-built homes, because of fire danger. Many people are building homes with wood stoves, and it is certain that a fire could get to a high enough temperature to melt the metal of a wood stove. The Waldo Canyon subdivisions pictured are/were much newer than the majority of homes in this area (based on my own personal observation from having lived in the area where the Hi Meadow fires happened), and may not have even included fireplaces.

(Side Note: I found a lot of data on the Mountain Shadows neighborhood, which mentioned in the photo gallery as one place affected and is representative of the neighborhoods that experienced destruction. Here is a link with the data about the neighborhood. It shows that the majority of the construction happened between 1980 and 2000 in that area.)

In both photos from the Hi Meadow fire of 2000, the same white, ashy residue is left over. I know this: the majority of trees in this area are varieties of pine, especially lodgepole, and there is often a carpet of dried needles around homes that makes for very snappy, hot, combustible fires! People are advised to keep their homes clear of the dead plant material, and I myself have cleaned up such stuff for fire danger reasons.

In these photos (and others I looked at in galleries) I don’t see very much that is “anomalous” except I know that where the fire in Waldo Canyon hit, it is/was a more populated subdivision with newer homes than in the Hi Meadow fire. The terrain is very, very similar, although the Hi Meadow fire is at a slightly higher altitude and has more trees.

Let’s move on to the 2002 Hayman fire which burned 137,760 acres and destroyed 600 structures. (Source)

{photo source: Denver Post. click on the pic to go to the original photo gallery.}

Untouched trees and ground in the background, with that same white, ashy soot.  I did not want to spend hours and hours looking for photos to pull up for this post, and so this one is not as “comparable”; however, here is another article about the Hayman fire with photo galleries you can check out.

THEN, we have 2010′s Fourmile fire near Boulder, Colorado which burned 6,388 acres and over 170 structures. (Source)

{source: Boulder Daily Camera. click on the pic to go to the original article where this photo appears}

Same white ash crap, same situation with totally destroyed areas and yet, HEY, look at the untouched tennis court and green trees around it! Hmmmmmm. Suspicious!! (That was written in the sarcastic font.)

Now we come to the 2012 High Park fire in Larimer County, Colorado, which started on June 9, 2012, just 19 days before the Waldo Canyon fire near Colorado Springs started.

There is SO MUCH information and there are so many photos about this fire, I don’t even know where to start. It’s obvious that the increased use of digital cameras, cell phones, Twitter, and Facebook have had a huge impact on how information is covered, even since the 2010 Fourmile fire.

There are dozens and dozens of photos here on Flickr.

Here is a link to the archives of articles about the High Park fire on the Denver Post website as well as their photo gallery with over 400 photos.

Here is one thing that is different between the Waldo Canyon fire and the High Park fire: the population density. The Waldo Canyon fire clearly involved more subdivisions than the areas affected near Fort Collins, Colorado. And I note that I could not easily find comparable aerial photos of homes destroyed in the High Park fire as were available about the Waldo Canyon fire. Perhaps the size and scope in terms of  numbers of subdivisions in the burn area of Waldo Canyon encouraged more photos of an aerial nature: they are very dramatic photos and therefore “newsworthy”.

But I still stand by the original premise that if one is going to make comparisons about fires and the “anomalous” details between them, STICK TO OTHER FIRES in the SAME area! Comparing data and images from fires in Colorado with similar data and environmental factors is what is necessary here. The terrain and vegetation in Southern California is COMPLETELY DIFFERENT from the low-mountain and foothill areas in the front range of the Rocky Mountains! Look at other apples when checking for anomalies with other apples. Keep your data set as close as possible, eh?

Finally, here is a quote from the Kettler article:

The Waldo Canyon Colorado fire had exotic high tech help; that’s the only reasonable conclusion to be drawn here. Ordinary wildfire does NOT destroy chimneys or fireplaces, nor does it spare lawns or trees. Neither does it leave snow white ash in its aftermath.

GAAAHHHHHH!!!

Ohmygawwwd, can we say LOGICAL FALLACY?  This is what is known as the BLACK AND WHITE: two alternative states are presented as the only possibilities, when in fact more possibilities exist.

Here are the alternative states being presented: ordinary wildfire versus fire with “exotic high tech help.” The statement, “that’s the only reasonable conclusion to be drawn here” is identifying “high tech help” as the ONLY explanation for the alleged anomalies, which I have hopefully shown to some degree do not appear to be anomalies at all.

There are more possibilities here, folks. Ordinary wildfire CAN and does destroy chimneys, if they are made from metal or wood and the fire is hot enough. Not to mention that, gee, maybe the homes did not HAVE fireplaces to begin with! They are recent constructions (within the last 20 years) and I know from people who have built Colorado mountain homes that guidelines for building fireplaces (if they are even allowed anymore) are very strict because of the fire hazards involved with fireplaces.

I have also shown from the other Colorado homes destroyed in wildfires than indeed, they DO spare lawns and trees! And snow-white ash is left in just about every photo I saw from the wildfire destruction in the fires mentioned above. Go and look at the galleries if you want more than what I have posted here. There is likely something about not only the materials used in Colorado home building that reduces to the white ash, or it is just that the fires get so damn hot in Colorado’s dry climate and where there is plenty of tinder to burn! I am certain that there can be more possibilities for what shows up in the fires, and probably a firefighter from Colorado could explain exactly the reasons for what shows up in the cited photo as well as all the other photos in which homes are destroyed.

Gosh this stuff gets up my nose!

I am seriously not the most logical chick in the world. I can be swayed by big-eyed kitty cats and emotional appeals. I tend to be a little naive. Given those factors, if even I can see the total bullshit that is here, it is actually pretty remarkable, haha. And if someone like me can figure out that the whole crap about “anomalies” (i.e., the different data sets) and the reduction of the argument to a binary statement, and it is that obvious to me, then it should be super-obvious to anyone that is of at least my mental capabilities.  I’m guessing that is a lot of people. And if you didn’t see it coming, well, then I hope I helped out a little here with the Bullshit Detection.

Concession/Point of Agreement

Here is the info that I see in the disinfo.

First off, do I think it is possible that “ankle biter” high-technology could be capable of such destruction? Sure. I mean, hell, I am personally very well aware of the havoc and destruction that even a middle school girl can wreak, so of course it is possible that “the powers that were” could possess this kind of technology and could create this level of destruction. I have no doubt about that. But in this case, given the data, I am going to shave with Occam’s Razor and say that the simplest explanation is best at this point. I see nothing anomalous that would point to anything other than a really shitty fire in a place that had become overbuilt and was at high-risk for destructive fire. Another place in Colorado that is very similarly affected is Boulder Canyon, and the Fourmile fire of 2010 is just one example of such. It’s the kind of place where humans have encroached and changed the ecosystem to the point where it creates destructive conditions because of that alteration. (I’m not going to hunt it down now, but I did run into one recent article that stated as much. Maybe I will find it later, but I am pretty pooped from all this writing about now. And kind of sick and tired of the whole thing. *sigh*)

I know Colorado Springs well. I know the ilk that runs around there. I know that some of the homes were multimillion dollar ones, and likely filled with icky ankle-biter types or their followers/minions/whatever (I know they exist), but take another good look at the data from the Mountain Shadows neighborhood:

Average estimated value of detached houses in 2009 (74.8% of all units):

Mountain Shadows: $361,395

Colorado Springs: $263,745

Ummmmm, yeah. I would not call those stats “multimillion dollar homes,” would you? Now maybe the other 25.2% of the units mentioned up there are the super-snazzy multimillion dollar ones. I saw pics online when researching this response, so sure, they exist. But the bulk of what burned was not those.

I can concede that there are some really crappy elite-types that are tied into the Colorado Springs political and financial systems, not to mention the military presence there. I really believe that most of the people in those neighborhoods were average people, however. Look at the data again.

I’m just not buying the arguments Kettler presents, and I hope I have given enough evidence here to show that this particular explanation of Kettler’s is being used for an agenda that is really not a good one. It’s not sound logic, and I have to have some logic with these explanations, no matter how woo-woo things get.

Here’s my thought:

I think Mother Earth is pissed, and these kinds of destructive fires are her way of saying, “Stop using me in such a manner. Don’t encroach into areas that are meant to be natural havens. Don’t build more than you need. Don’t waste. Don’t use such flammable materials to build your expensive-but-cheapo McMansions! Silly people.” It’s the law of natural consequences.

Arson may have been the cause of the Waldo Canyon fire. It’s happened before. It’s usually an out-of-control campfire or cigarette or kids messing around with flames in one form or another that is the causal act. It would not be unusual for arson to be the cause. It was the cause of some of the other devastating wildfires in Colorado’s past. In contrast, I know that the High Park fire was caused by lightening, and I even heard (unsubstantiated! And not going to check now!! Maybe later, or someone else can) that one of the recent wildfires in New Mexico was caused by a falling meteorite (oh yeah, that is addressed in the Kettler piece, too. I’m seriously not going to touch that one at this point, though. Too tired, and this has taken too long as it is. See the “concession” part up there again).

Nature is more often the cause of wildfires than arson, but this remains to be seen in the Waldo Canyon case. It is true, however, that wildfires can get be so destructive in an area like the Waldo Canyon one because of the bad choices that humans are making in terms of how and where they build their McMansions, NOT because of alleged (on weak grounds) high-tech ankle-biter plasma bombs.

I think this one was all-natural, well, past the potential arson part. What resulted from the point-of-origin was a natural consequence, however, and does not appear to have been aided by out-of-this-world tech, in my opinion, and hopefully for which I have given good evidence. If there is SOUND and logical evidence that comes up in this investigation to show otherwise, I will gladly change my position.

All that is my two bits.

Over and out.

Calliope the Muse