Where am I at these days?

the view from my bedroom window

Greetings, Voyagers.

This is the view from the bedroom where I am currently staying. I liked in the photo how the sunlight refracted through the amethyst I have on the windowsill (maybe an orb there?). I’ve been letting the amethyst charge, and like those stickers people used to place in windows that said, in French, “ICI” to alert firefighters there were people, especially children, in rooms where the windows were, I keep the crystals there not only for protection, but as a signal to the galactic “firefighters” to say “ICI, I’m Here.” They are next to a solar-powered, crank-operated weather radio I found in the room when I moved in. Nice, huh. And that is “crank” as in “hand-turning device” not something else, haha. Because of those stickers, “ICI” was the first French word I ever learned. At present, I know many more French words, but don’t know how often I will have to practice them these days.

More on that in a moment.

If you notice in the photo, the Colorado sky is hazy and the sun is causing the clouds to glow pink. It’s almost time for sunset. Chemtrail action? No. I did see a little of that here a week or so ago, but the haze here is due to this:

esri fire map – click pic for direct to link (it changes day to day. this is a screen shot from August 15, 2012)

See how the west is burning? What we have in Colorado is the haze from the smoke blowing our way.

I have regularly been tuning into these two guys on YouTube:



They report on planet Earth activity and other events, but have lately been focused on solar interactions and earthquakes. Often HAARP stuff, too. I wish they would share more about the fires going on, but perhaps other stories are just likely to get more attention right now. I was not even aware that there were so many fires until a family member told me that the unusually hazy skies were because the western U.S. is ablaze. It even smells like smoke outside. Very faint whiffs breeze through the window when the wind is blowing just so.

So where am I now and what am I doing?

Well, here is my woo-woo take on what’s been going on.

Alas. I just spent about three hours writing 3,000 words. I realized re-reading the story I wrote so far that I don’t know if I can post the information here, yet. I’ve saved it, but it is not getting posted here just now.

I can say this much. I had been living in the E.U. for four years until just two weeks ago. A child custody and child support issue in my life could no longer be ignored. My passport was taken by the U.S. government in May because I owe a huge amount of support in Colorado. There is a Federal law from 1996 that says they can do this.

The way the agreement got settled is very spurious, and involves a huge story that is very complicated.

I have had to leave my twin flame and husband back in the E.U. I have no job here. I have a place to live thanks to my first ex-husband, not the one with whom I have this problem (that’s ex No.2). I need legal assistance I am not sure how to get because I have no job and no savings and no idea of where to find a free lawyer. I’ve tried. I keep getting rejections. I know there must be one out there somewhere, but I don’t know where to look.

It is no coincidence that these things reached a peak a mere six weeks after my discovering there are such things as Archons, and that there is an entire system that keeps us entrapped. They are doing this in a last-ditch effort to try to take me out.

But I am now at a critical point where if something does not shift or move soon, I feel I am lost.

Please understand I have just spent over three hours reliving the past, and all the crazy stuff that has happened to me. I’m tired, and I have been in pain in my left shoulder for WEEKS, and it just keeps getting worse. I know, I know. I know why, but for the life of me, I can’t solve the issue yet.

All at the moment feels pressured and dark. I feel like there is no way out, which is exactly how I know it is *them* that is manipulating this, right?

Yes, I entertained for two minutes how sweet it would be to just end it here. I admit I gave in and fantasized for a moment how easy it could be to swallow some pills, go to sleep, and not wake up. But that is truthfully a completely selfish and horrible idea, and I do not want my son to be the one to find me, and I know he would be the one. I will not do that to him and to the rest that love me. I won’t give into the ankle biters who are exacerbating this situation. Bastards.

I’m just saying that I want to be released from that which I feel my higher self got me into, by my trusting her, and following her and my heart. That’s ultimately why I am in this situation. I trusted the one I thought was my divine guidance, along with my own heart. Maybe it was really them. I just don’t know right now.

What I do know is that I need a solution to this problem quite seriously, and soon. If it gets worse, I could be imprisoned, no joke. I don’t really think they would do that to me (meaning: the state or a judge — they want me to get a job and pay the huge amount, not just languish in jail. And it seems a huge amount to me because I literally have nothing right now. A couple hundred dollars in the bank, truly. The amount I owe could just about buy an E-class Mercedes Sedan).

So there you go. It’s why I sit here and type in a small room in Colorado, and no longer in the E.U. I know there could be very many good reasons for why I am here, but things are getting bleaker by the moment, and I need release. So many Lightworkers do.

Please, something has got to give.

That’s all I can muster for the moment. I’m going to try to get some sleep now.

Your (somewhat discouraged at the moment),