It seemed appropriate to chime in…

… on the day that is a 5-5-5 — May 5, 2012. May = 5, Day 5 = 5, 2+0+1+2 = 5. (Of course I started writing this at about 11:45 at night, so it’s already the 6th as this will post. The intention was there, and it is still the 5th in a lot of places on the planet. 😉 )

If I remember correctly, my numerology “personality number” (the consonants in my birth name) add up to a number 5, too. And my birthday is later this month, the day before the lunar eclipse coming up on the 20th, in fact. And I will be 44. Nice, eh?

I digress.

I have been wanting to write for days now, but between daily living tasks, and traveling, and just being plain exhausted, I have not been able to get a chance to post on all that I am learning.

I have, however, left a couple of comments on the latest Denise LeFay post where she copies in the May Report from Lisa Renee of Energetic Synthesis.  The comments I wrote there explain where I have been at the past couple of weeks (mostly tired, stressed out from traveling down the rabbit hole and emerging into a new zone of understanding, and coping with people who think, probably justifiably, that I am wigging out).

I have finished reading Karla Turner’s books on alien abduction, Into the Fringe and also Taken: Inside the Alien-Human Abduction Agenda, as well as her book with someone named Ted Rice, Masquerade of Angels. (You can find PDF versions of these books for free online. Just Google them. I think I may have linked them into my previous post here as well.)

I have been reading and listening to various sources online about “disclosure” and all that could come in terms of what will be disclosed and when it could happen in regards to government(s) “coming clean” about multidimensional/alien beings.

I have learned about the potential types of alien species present in Earth dealings, and the possible links to the really fringe stuff of the ilk where conspiracy theorists like to tread.

One thing I read that has had a huge impact on me is the June 21, 2004 article found on Barbara Marciniak’s site,, called Emerging from Denial (it’s one of the sample articles from The Pleiadian Times Newsletter). This article comforted me so very much and I appreciated reading it very much. I felt it to be very accurate to my own situation and awakening experience. I was kind of hoping I could do a point-by-point analysis of the things that really connected with me, but the thing is, apparently I am to use the supermoon energy of the Wesak/Buddha moon to try to literally download as much as I can from places online where I have been directed this weekend. The amount of information I’m encountering is staggering, and while I am sure that I am getting a lot of information while I am asleep in the 3D (which was a lot this past week), I also think that those who are leading me down the rabbit hole are wanting me to consciously get this information by more standard 3D means, and this weekend I have had the time to do just that.

I’m watching some interesting videos on YouTube — lots and lots of stuff about disclosure and just how many sightings of unidentified space/aircraft there have been in the past several months, as well as those who are explaining what Lisa Renee speaks of in her May Report, and also along the likes of information presented on David Wilcock’s Divine Cosmos site, too.

Here’s the thing.

I DO absolutely feel totally nutty going down this path. I really do. It’s embarrassing. It’s causing tension with my husband and with my two best Lightworker friends to whom I usually tell just about everything. They are having a hugely hard time with the fact that I am getting into the whole UFO/alien thing, and also conspiracy theories. They feel I am treading into areas that may not be valid and/or should just be left alone (“dark thoughts attract dark entities” kinds of belief).

The thing is, I am having a hard time NOT getting into it! I feel a complete shove from my team, my inner guidance system, and my general interest in this area, too — something that has actually been with me since about the age of 8 (interest in UFOs or other like phenomena).

I was, for many years, also an evangelical Christian and the notion of “spiritual warfare” and the stories of the Old Testament which line up with stories about intergalactic beings — Seraphim and Nephilim, yadayadayada  aka Annunaki or whatever — really make a lot of sense to me. It’s a big deal, but it is not such a big deal. It’s the biggest deal for Earthlings, but then I get the sense that I am not an Earthling, and this stuff is kind of old hat — it’s not something to totally get my panties in a wad over. It’s serious, yes, but not exactly earth-shattering. No pun intended. It is what it is, and I am here to help out with the mess and with the smooth transition to something better.

Aside: The whole story of how I was pulled out of that belief system – Christianity — coordinated very nicely with the timeline presented in Barbara Marciniak’s article, by the way. I came out of Christianity in full between summer of 2004 and November of 2005 (after the Venus transit of 2004). My Kundalini Awakening started in October of 2006, and I first touched upon some of the ideas regarding the “Powers that Were” in 2009, before some mighty intense shit went down in March of that year, and which did not really stop until this past transformation that got kicked off on October 28, 2011 and also over the New Year/Epiphany and then the Spring Equinox. Some things in my 3D world settled down only to have the lid blown off on this whole alien business, and now I feel I am operating on a whole different level of understanding altogether, and not really sure if I am liking what I am exposed to, but feeling the need to learn and not be afraid, and proceed forthwith in understanding how to hold my own with these energies. I’m guessing this is what it really means to have the kind of Lightwork Mission I was meant to have, and I am going with it until it becomes obvious that I should leave it alone, if that is indeed what I need to do.

Next up on my agenda: to learn how to use the 12D shield. I first learned about this more than a month ago, and I have yet to try it out, mostly because it feels like a pain in the ass (guided stuff like has a tendency to bore me and makes me antsy — the daily need to do it feels like such a CHORE). BUT, I totally have already had to call upon those beings who are helping to protect me, and we did create a “bubble of light” for me in one encounter I happened to have in a semi-sleep state. We’ll see what happens. Sometimes I am given my own tools to use in situations like these, while the tools of others do inform me and inform how to proceed. I’ll watch the 12D Shield Video entirely and take it from there. I know it is important when doing work in this area to have adequate coverage and protection, and I would be stupid to not invoke some kind of energy suit for this work. It would be like a firefighter going in naked to fight a fire. So I get the need to do something like this. I’m just hoping that my team and inner guidance system can maybe come up with something specially designed for me and how I like to operate.

I have to go to bed. I knew this would happen: I’d get on here and then get on a roll of things to say and write about. But I have to get a little rest and also finish one video I was in the middle of before being drawn to write something here.

Be well, everyone. Hold on to your hats. Shine your shoes for the fat lady (a J.D. Salinger reference which basically means “show up for work and do your best”) and live long and prosper.

Over and out.

Calliope the Muse

Etheric Body Work and Other Lessons

[Note: 16 April 2012 – UPDATE below]

I’m back, after three days away, busily learning so very much I can barely keep up. As I referred to in my last post, my sense of time and that “time is of the essence” (meaning: get to work!) is speeding up. I definitely feel a straddling of 3, 4, and 5D in the past couple of weeks, something I have not felt in a long time (about five years, in fact — well, for sure about exactly four years, and five if I count my Kundalini Awakening in the mix).

De-programming (aka, back on the “Magic Bus”)

In the previous post, I also mentioned that I have just this week again been using TAT (Tapas Acupressure Technique). It is something I was guided to five, almost six, years ago, and something which I learned and used extensively until about 2008 when a lot of things (use of etheric and esoteric healing, communication with my guides, a strong sense of and interaction with the 4 and 5D) ground to a halt. From June of 2008 onward, I felt like I was dumped off at the curb by my higher self (my inner guidance, my connection to Source) and I was tossed into the muck and mire of day-to-day life of living with a binge alcoholic (who on, get this, 1-11-11 tried to overdose on Tylenol PM tablets and sedatives while drunk and who is, as of 1-11-11, a recovering alcoholic. He’s also now my husband and doing fairly well with his recovery, although my latest information downloads are drawing us further apart at the moment. Perhaps more on that later).

This feeling of being dumped off at the curb, as of this year (although activation started in September of last year around the Equinox), has changed. I am now back “on board the Magic Bus,” and my guides have become plural. My “higher self” often used to refer to herself in the plural using “we” but was only ever one voice, or the inner guidance gave me the impression of one personality at that time. It’s now definitely plural, a “team” that is working with me, and I “see” them (in my “mind’s eye”) as shadowy pluralities. My original guide is still there, and it is still just her “voice” that I perceive, but she is definitely a part of a team at present.

Yesterday after experiencing yet another bout of abdominal pain (a numbness, pain, and swelling in the upper abdomen just under my left ribcage), I was told that it was a program that was inserted into my etheric body and that I would use TAT to “de-program” it and then perform some etheric body surgery on myself.

A couple of years ago (actually, just over three years), I met the most lovely Lightworker here in my city, a young woman from Arizona, but who has been living in the same country as me for over 10 years now. I have not seen her in a while (she and I are so busy doing our work, 3 and 4/5D), but if not for her, I would not have survived 2009-2011. Honestly. Between her and my best friend, another Lightworker with whom I have up to now been partnered (my current understandings of what is *really* going on as it is being revealed to me are putting a bit of a wedge between us), I don’t know if I would have made it.

My Arizona friend was learning how to do etheric body surgery in 2010 (with this team here), and I was one of her practice “guinea pigs” and learned from her what it is and what it feels like.

So yesterday, I held the pose of TAT, was deprogrammed by my “team” , and then I was told how to extract different programs/entities from my abdominal region through etheric surgery. Any of you seen The Matrix trilogy? Do you remember the Sentinels? Well, in my mind’s eye (perceiving with my right brain the imagery that is presented mentally in regards to the 4th dimension), that’s what some of these programs/parasitic entities look like.

Here’s a strange thing: just as I was typing those paragraphs above, I had a huge urge to smoke. I have struggled with smoking (wanting to, doing it, and trying to give it up) ever since late 2004 when I was 36 years old. It’s a long story, but through my Kundalini Awakening (2006), I went from smoking three cigarettes a day (“cloves” — Indonesian clove-flavored tobacco cigarettes) to a pack a day (I eventually switched to regular cigarettes just as a nicotine delivery device; cloves are more expensive than regular cigs). I gave up the pack-a-day habit in September of 2009, but have struggled with episodes of smoking and then quitting every three or four months since then. It’s tied in with my allergies and the changing of seasons, as well as triggered by stressful events.

I have again been “flirting” with cigarettes the past three or four weeks with the start of spring and spring allergies (as well as the stress of coming out of the winter months and the rapid changes of 2012 so far). In addition, the people I work for are smokers and there are situations where I smoke with them, although I no longer bring the habit into my own home nor buy my own packs of cigarettes that I take along with me to smoke when I am outside. Instead, I buy their brand, leave a pack of cigarettes at their homes (so they can have some if they want them) and then when I am there, I feel free to smoke and not like I am leeching off of them with mooching their ciggies; I have my own if we all decide to smoke. This is just short of starting up again, as you can see.

Friday, I was at the home of one of the people I work for, waiting for him as he needed to finish a task before we started work together (I tutor him in English), and I took one of “my” cigarettes (from the pack I left there) to smoke as I waited. As I was smoking, I was explicitly told by my team that it was time to STOP. If I wanted further contact from them, I would have to quit as this was a program that was interfering with communications with them. They said I would use TAT to purge myself of the program (and yes, these are called “programs,” as in “alien implants”. I know, I know. I think it is weird, too, but this is the place my inner guidance is demanding that I go!), and subsequently experience etheric surgery as well (maybe performed by me, but more likely by them, I perceive, as it affects more regions of the etheric body and with smaller attached programs). The idea that smoking is interference for communication is a concept I have understood for a while, maybe not exactly in those bold terms (who wants to believe that extraterrestrials are talking inside of their head? Seriously? Please note the name of this blog, lol), but have understood on some level nonetheless.

Just now, when the urge was upon me to smoke, they said to pause on this post, hold the TAT position so that they could energetically assist me with my participation in opening up the “portal” to my connection with my etheric body, and then a clearing process would ensue.

So I did.

I wish I could adequately explain all the feelings I have when I do TAT: the sense of my “third eye” pulsing, and energy rushes into my brain. I feel these things *physically* and they are very, very actual feelings. It’s one of the ways I know that this is not all some kind of fakery, some kind of joke. Ever since starting TAT, I feel very powerful energy surges when I use it, as well as intense pressure in my brain and sometimes Kundalini energy surging in my chakra energy centers.

The program was extracted, and I felt them draw a really large amorphous black blob in a vaguely cylindrical form, an energy in dimension that would be about a foot and a half to two feet (so, roughly half a meter to 2/3 meter); it was kind of “barfed up” (lol – sorry, don’t have another way to describe it) from my etheric body (it reminded me of a hairball from a cat, only bigger and not hairy, just black and tar like? Maybe the energetic imprint from the actual tar in cigarettes?). Again, I saw this all clearly with my mind’s eye, the place where I see the “movies in my head” when I read a book, the place where imagination springs and we can “see” with our mind, but not with our eyes. I do feel physical sensations when this is all happening, though, so I understand it is very real, just in another dimension.

The other day — Saturday — much of the same happened with my abdominal surgery. A de-programming, and then I, with my physical hands pulled things energetically — parasites, parasite programs, often with tentacles that are embedded energetically to my energetic/etheric body — from my being. Yes, I was making the motions with my physical hands, and yes, I could feel these things leave my body energetically. I was told to just toss them away into the etheric 4D where they are taken care of, I guess. I just literally toss with my hands the “imaginary thing” in my hands away from my body. It’s gone.

You know that feeling when someone puts a hand close to yours without touching, or the energy you feel from someone to whom you are very physically attracted, or the sensation you know when someone is staring at you? These are all emanations of energy and the kinds of feelings I have when performing these surgeries on myself. It sounds spooky to be doing this myself, but it is not. It’s not any worse, honestly, than pulling a splinter from one’s own finger or sticking disinfectant and a Band Aid on a papercut. It feels “bigger” than doing those things, and more intense in some ways, but something I know and understand I am capable of doing.

Okay, so much for etheric body work. Questions? Ask in comments below.

Other Lessons

Denise LeFay did it again with turning me on to so many websites and pieces of information. There have been many things that I have been turned on to that I’m not sure what to go ahead and post here. You know that old saying from Timothy Leary in 1967: “Tune in, turn on, drop out”? (See here.) Yeah, I am getting more information and insights than if I had dropped 10 tabs of acid, lol (not that I know what that is like — I never tried it. But I have friends who have and been around people tripping and have some ideas of the powerful insights that can come when opening doors that way. I’m not recommending that mode, not now anyway, when you can open the same portals just by asking in this day and age, but I understand it is one way that people open up to spiritual understandings).

I’m definitely tuned in, becoming more and more turned on, and it remains to be seen if I drop out much as I did in 2008-2009. I’m going down the rabbit hole, baby. It gets deeper with each step, and I am in training to handle it.

  • Here’s a great post from Denise that features a radio interview of Lisa Renee by the podcast The Hundredth Monkey —-> link
  • Listening to that post as well as Lisa Renee’s monthly podcasts has led me to begin watching her YouTube series called “Ascension Cycle Timeline” from 2010. All of Lisa Renee’s videos can be found on this page (or search for the “Energetic Synthesis” page on YouTube itself), and the six-part “Ascension Cycle Timeline” series is on the second page of all the videos (see link —-> here).
  • A few posts ago, Denise also featured information from Bernhard Guenther — a video on his website “Piercing the Veil of Reality” called “Love, Reality, and the Time of Transition” (go —-> here to watch it). In fact, I still have not been able to watch the entire video because of an Internet connection of late that is still running only in the 1 mbps range (it should be closer to 10 mbps), but because of exploring the website/blog, I ran into some interesting information. Okay, hang on — not on that site as I had thought. Now I recall that it was in a comment on the post that Denise LeFay wrote linking folks into the Bernhard Guenther site. Correction 4-16-2102: I realized that it was not the “Love, Reality, and the Time of Transition” video that led me to investigation of Even Lorgen and Karla Turner (see links below), but the post “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” —-> link. There is seriously more information in that post to digest than in many I have seen. I realized my error when just today, Monday April 16, I started to re-read the information presented. It’s well-worth checking out.
  • Anyway, I learned about Alien Love Bites from Eve Lorgen, and read several of the articles available on her site —-> here. (I’m wondering if I am in one of those situations or if I am in a Twin Flame relationship, as I was told in 2006. So much depends upon the answer, and I am not sure I really want to know at this point.)
  • And, it feels like taking a bit of a risk in adding this one because of the nature of the beasts involved, I have read the Karla Turner book Taken and have just started Into the Fringe. I found the books available in downloadable PDF files from this website —–> here.

I’m definitely revving up for what I think will be full-on contact, hopefully with my Pleiadian family (like, for “real”. Not just this “in my head” stuff, but contact in the 3D of some kind). I try not to freak about contact with some of the others, but, frankly, I keep asking if I have been or will be abducted, and they (my “team”) keep saying, “No, because you are 2/3 Pleiadian, and they know not to fuck with you like that.” Their words, not mine. Ha. I’m sure it is not actually the word “fuck” but it carries the same meaning in Pleiadian telepathy, lol.

(God I feel fucking weird typing that… *shakes head* And 2/3 Pleiadian? WTF is that?)

I also just put quotation marks around the word “real” up there in the previous paragraph’s first sentence and then kind of laughed, for the 3D is really the illusion, it is really the Matrix. It’s all relative, as Einstein would say, haha.

Okay, I think that is it. I hope perhaps in the future, as I have said, to share more links, in part so I have a history of what is going on with me, and in part so that others can read and investigate for themselves, too.

My stomach has been feeling much better by the way, noticeably even as I have been typing this, and I am not reacting to foods the way that they had been irritating me for months now.  I have tenderness, but it is already so much better. I have more “clean up”of residual parasitic programs, but they are going to be dealt with, either by me, or by my team.

Stay cool.

Peace out.

Calliope the Muse

UPDATE: 16 April 2012

This morning I did more abdominal etheric surgery as I awoke with extreme numbness and a feeling like something was crawling or writhing in my upper abdomen, just under my left ribcage where I have always perceived my stomach to be. I visualized another program coming to the surface and was instructed to hold the TAT hand positions on my head, and then after it was deprogrammed by my team, via TAT, I extracted it (etherically), and tossed it aside. I then was asked to go back to sleep.

Later this afternoon, I jumped on a scale that my visiting mother-in-law brought with her from the US (and on which I weighed myself four days ago): I have already lost one pound. 🙂

Now there is some evidence that this stuff has some effect on my physical body in 3D.  😉 Nice. Just nice. It feels good to be lightening my earthly load in this way and see the empirical evidence in 3D that it works.

Checking in…

I don’t know about the rest of you, but time is definitely speeding up for me in this 2012 year. I can barely grasp a day before it slips through my fingers; I can sense the inner heart of the earth beating faster and while the clock may show that there are 24 hours in a day and each second can be measured with 3D means and incrementally/mathematically each is still the same, my perception of the seconds, minutes, and hours is rapidly increasing.

In the past week I have been grokking more and more about what it means to be a Lightworker, and while it is absolutely about holding love and light (as I have understood it for many years, but specifically in those terms since 2006), there is a whole other dimension to the work that I had no idea about up until about a month ago (or whenever it was I started this blog. Maybe it was just a couple of weeks? My sense of time is so different these days). It started with listening to the February podcast of Lisa Renee at Energetic Synthesis (“Self Definition” — transcript here). Denise LeFay has been posting the written form of the audio podcasts for some time, and one day I went to the Energetic Synthesis site and downloaded a few of the recent podcasts, starting with this past December 2011.

Until I read the post I cited here earlier on Make Me a Tinfoil Hat at Denise’s site, I had been unwilling to recognize the role of an alien agenda in my life and in the work of a Lightworker. The starting of this blog signifies that I at least have a foot in the boat. I have not yet totally rowed off the shoreline, but I have my oars in hand, and as soon as I have satisfying “proof” — an inner evidence, if you will — I will start to row. I kind of think I might be already, in fact (haha!). I’m hesitant, though, because I am starting to get a sense of just how much I have been deceived and it is freaking me out.

At the moment I am worried that I have come to the new country where I am living now (I am originally from the US and now live in a major European city, where I have been for almost four years) on false pretenses — that perhaps it was an alien implant and manipulation that led me here. I understand from my previous spiritual experiences and teachings that all can work to the good of one’s life, even the tragedies, once you are aware and have the perspective, and so I believe there has been a “good purpose” for my being here. In fact, I 100% have evidence that my Lightwork has been needed deeply here.

All can work for the good, for the Light, to those who love and are called to its purpose(s).

I know this deeply in my heart.

But I am also disheartened about the pretenses under which I came here because I left two children behind, one who is only just about six-and-a-half. I have not seen him, touched him, breathed in his scent, nor hugged him for four years.

My other son is 15-almost-16 and he and I share a close bond (and Internet access via social media and emailing as well as the phone) which is strong enough to withstand a separation. In fact, I have seen the separation work to great good in his life. I believe he is a Lightworker as well, perhaps an Indigo? A Starseed? I don’t know the terminology that could apply to this Generation Y kiddo, but he is one of “us.” He is doing very important work in my absence in his life, and he and I know it. It all felt “right” to leave him with his dad for his greater learning and work. I don’t like it — I feel I am missing so much of his life, and I am, but I am more at peace with it than I am about my littlest child.

Anyway, I have to get offline soon. But I wanted to have at least some kind of freewritten update of what I am experiencing now. I am doing more and more intake of knowledge, I am accepting each day that there is indeed something akin to an alien agenda running programs here on the planet (god, I still want to tell myself to make the tinfoil hat when I express such things! Paranoid schizo much?! 😉 )

I have found many sites that I hope to link in, on a sidebar, on a post, someplace.

For now, here is something that I listened to on Tuesday from Lisa Renee’s April podcast (a huge thanks to Denise for keeping us readers aware of when her newsletters are ready). It’s excellent material and I encourage people who are motivated to read or listen to it! “Settling Accounts” —-> transcript link here.

(From the section titled “Gridworker Update”)

The Four Corners Area is to be an area of accelerated Extraterrestrial contact, a communication hub and interdimensional port, which will become more prevalent this year and ongoing. Contact is personal at this time due to the extreme fragility of the human mental bodies and explosive dynamics present on earth. However, as mentioned last month, guidelines for positive contact and preparation for those communications, is suggested for Starseeds, that have not been contacted already. Overcoming fear, self-doubt and the tendency to glamourize E.T.’s is critical for successful contact. Some contact will be applied through dream state, telepathy, virtual realities, computer technologies, ufo sighting and some dark arts training is needed to discern and enforce who you allow to communicate with you. Do not accept blindly what anything is telling you, use your 12 D shield, employ boundary testing and appropriate guidelines for establishing rules (on your terms) for contact. [emphasis added]

I’m ready. I am ready to be contacted. I have already been instructed to use some of the techniques in the Tapas Acupressure Technique found at this link: I believe I know the origin of the beings who are going to contact me (Pleiadian — I was given this information, which I somewhat dismissed or forgot about — an implant at work? Or just more 3D transmutation to do? Probably a bit of both — in 2009).

What I feel I need now is to understand how to use a 12D shield, boundary testing, and establishing rules. I’m working on that now.

I would love to write more, but I have to go to the grocery store with my mother-in-law who is visiting my husband and his two kids this week.

HA. So it goes: from 5D thoughts to mundane 3D caring for ourselves in an instantaneous switch of focus, lol.

Be well, live long and prosper. I hope that I can write more of my thoughts very soon.

Ophelia the Muse

No April Fool

Who am I?

Welcome to what I think is my forty-eleventh blog in the blogsphere, but the first that I am writing anonymously because this is clearly going to be a totally Woo-Woo blog, and I would just as soon keep my known blogging identity separate from the Woo-Woo this is inevitably going to be. Now, I know that staying totally anonymous in this day and age is not really possible (I’d be very naive to think so), so if my other personas and this one get intertwined, so be it. But for now, I want to keep my identity under wraps as much as I can, and so I am defaulting to a name I gave myself about six years ago, “Calliope the Muse.” She was one of the nine Greek muses, and is described on Wikipedia with the following (footnotes and links removed — click the previous link to read the original article):

In Greek mythology, Calliope (/kəˈlaɪ.əpiː/ kə-LY-ə-pee; Ancient Greek: Καλλιόπη Kalliope “beautiful-voiced”) was the muse of epic poetry, daughter of Zeus and Mnemosyne, and is believed to be Homer’s muse, the inspiration for the Odyssey and the Iliad. One account says Calliope was the lover of the war god Ares, and bore him several sons… Calliope also had two famous sons, Orpheus and Linus, by either Apollo or the king Oeagrus of Thrace. She taught Orpheus verses for singing. She was the wisest of the Muses, as well as the most assertive. She married Oeagrus close to Pimpleia, Olympus. Calliope is always seen with a writing tablet in her hand. At times, she is depicted as carrying a roll of paper or a book or as wearing a gold crown.

I have a few things in common with Calliope, including a couple of sons, and I am often seen carrying a book (or Kindle, more recently). Plus there is this “writing thing” that I do, and especially on blogs. Mostly, though, I think she’s got a nice name, and I’m happy to have it as a pseudonym. I like to think that perhaps the spirit of Calliope is the one that has given me the name, and she smiles on me when I use it.

Why am I writing on this blog?

I have been struggling with what I shall label “The Ascension Process” knowingly and consciously for the past 5+ years. It started with what some might term a “Kundalini Awakening” beginning in late 2006, but I leaped upon stepping stones of intense spiritual growth up to this time. (Maybe more on my ideas as to what those terms mean in future posts.)

The other day, on April Fools Day, I watched the following video (I’m not upgrading this blog straight away to include the ability to embed videos, so you will have to click on the link to watch it): Pleiadian Message 2012 – A Wake Up Call For the Family of Light. It was after reading the post on Denise LeFay’s blog, Transitions, called “The devil’s best trick is to persuade you that he doesn’t exist!” posted on March 27, 2012.

In the post, Denise shares the video called “UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact” by Bernard Guenther, blog owner of Piercing the Veil of Reality (the link to the post Denise references is here: UFOs, Aliens, and the Question of Contact).

Here’s how Denise introduces the video:

The video is primarily about other-dimensional negative aliens/ETs (“Archons”) and physical humanity. Some of you might not enjoy hearing about Team Dark as I call them—the “Archons”, Reptilians, Draconians etc.—and how profoundly they affect us and our world. But it’s necessary that humanity knows more, much more about multidimensional reality especially now, and that simply includes knowing how Dark it really has been for humanity and whose [sic] behind it all.

I’m a pretty open-minded person and have been defining myself as a Lightworker for the past six years, although I recognize I was doing work as a Lightworker from long before 2006 (I just didn’t know there was a name for what it was I was doing or, rather, being). There’s a helluva story between 2006 and the present, and I don’t know how much I will get into it here, but I think it is one of the reasons that I am starting this blog. (So I am guessing I will probably get into it a lot, haha.)

To continue — I read that description of Denise’s and started to watch the video, but I have been having problems with my Internet connection of late, and it has been very hard to watch videos easily as they don’t download very fast (my download bitrate is equaling that of a dial-up modem, practically, at the moment. WAIT. I just checked here and yeah, actually, see the 2400 baud. That’s about where we are at during certain times. It’s an ongoing issue that does not warrant me getting into here. Point is: it’s tough to stream vids from YouTube and other online sources).

Then I kept falling asleep while watching the video.

Between not being able to watch the whole video and then getting tired and conking out as I was trying to watch, I kind of said to myself, “This whole alien thing is a tough pill to swallow” and decided that I needed more proof.

I’m open-minded, like I wrote, but this is the kind of stuff that stretches open-mindedness, you know? This is “I’m a paranoid schizophrenic who is making myself a tinfoil hat and talking to the voices in my head” kind of nutty stuff.

But it is the kind of stuff that will not leave me alone, and again and again I keep coming back to how the Ascension of the planet and alien beings connect.

Yes, Virginia, I am going to the tinfoil hat place.

The existence of alien beings & their role in my life

I don’t have the kind of hubris that would state “Earth is the only habitable planet in the galaxy, or in the universe, for that matter, and we are the only species in the galaxy and the universe.” Ever since I watched one of my heroes, Dr. Carl Sagan, on the PBS show “Cosmos” back when it originally aired in 1980 (I was 12) explain that out of the “billions and billions” of stars in our galaxy and the galaxies around us, we would have to be kind of stupid to think we are the only living beings (my total paraphrase of what I remember him saying), I have understood in the probability of alien life. I also believe in the existence of alien craft and have had a fascination with UFOs since I was a young child. It is not a stretch for me to think that there is alien life that has visited the planet.

But I never before put 2+2 together with not only the existence of UFOs and alien life, but also a nefarious alien agenda AND my process of being a Lightworker undergoing Ascension (which I have merely understood up to now to be holding love and light to increase my vibratory frequency to help this planet evolve — all of this happening via doing my own inner work to clear my personal and karmic issues so that I could indeed hold that higher frequency).

I do now.

Yes, I want more proof. After being involved in mainline religion (in a rather fundamental and conservative way — something I now understand may in fact be an “alien agenda” in itself), and after going through experiences in the past six years that leave me mistrustful of my process and how my Higher Self has been guiding me, I am cautious.

But watching the videos I have in the past couple of days, along with a sense since January 1 of this year of “going live” or “going online” with the re-wiring of the inner work that has been transforming me, I have to say as of April 1 of this year, I understand that there is an alien battle for the planet and that my role as a Lightworker is to do the following (as Denise wrote in comments on her blog post):

It seems an almost impossible task for us Starseeds/Lightworker who volunteered to come here and enter this density and timeline and do all we can to shift everything.

The super-duper condensed answer is…as we EMBODY and ANCHOR the new higher frequency energetic blueprints or “templates” in our physical bodies and beings and live it, BE it in this “Now Moment”, that is how we override all of the false, inorganic BS and distortions Team Dark has done to humanity, their bodies and minds, and earth. It comes down to us embodying and by doing that we literally insert the NEW higher blueprints or templates into this timeline and make them available energetically to the rest of humanity.

That is the most important sentence I’ve ever written. Seriously.

And we all need to realize that 2012 is Just Do It time because Team Dark is throwing everything they’ve got at us to stop or prevent or override us from doing this now. Time’s short. Because of this 2012 won’t be an easy or safe year for Starseeds/Lightworkers but we knew the end of this Process wouldn’t be easy and that Team Dark wouldn’t just lay down and let us have our way! They will fight us to the bitter end and we need to get over this and just do what we do and stay as protected as we can while we do it!

Going online

For months now, I have understood that in my brain, mind, body, soul, spirit — my Being in the 3D, 4D and beyond — is “going online.” My inner guidance has been saying this to me for a long while, and I get that it is this year that “All systems are GO” (especially after the Spring Equinox, when I kept hearing directly about “going online” and how it was happening that week).

What was very amusing to me was in the past 48 hours as I have been learning and figuring out more and more about what the alien agenda on Earth means and my involvement in being in the rebellion against it, is that I also figured out I am to literally GO ONLINE with what I am experiencing! I have had a good laugh about that. As Denise writes, this is JUST DO IT time, and I understand that one of my roles is to once again start a blog and write about this stuff. It’s definitely where I feel my heart right now.

I have to say that I have started and abandoned blogs — or, maybe more accurately, started blogs which then stopped when they morphed into another blog about separate topic. This may be a morphing of energy into this project, or I may still be dividing my time between this and other writing I do.

I’m not 100% sure what is going to come of this one. I just know that I needed to GO ONLINE and get this stuff down so that others out there may read and understand that they are not alone, and they are not nuts. Some intelligent, sane, really relatively normal people believe and have experienced some remarkable things, and the WEIRD is definitely not done yet.

I wonder if Hunter S. Thompson had lived if 2012 would have gotten weird enough for him. I guess we’ll have to see just how weird it gets!

Live long and prosper.

Calliope the Muse