I don’t know about the rest of you, but time is definitely speeding up for me in this 2012 year. I can barely grasp a day before it slips through my fingers; I can sense the inner heart of the earth beating faster and while the clock may show that there are 24 hours in a day and each second can be measured with 3D means and incrementally/mathematically each is still the same, my perception of the seconds, minutes, and hours is rapidly increasing.
In the past week I have been grokking more and more about what it means to be a Lightworker, and while it is absolutely about holding love and light (as I have understood it for many years, but specifically in those terms since 2006), there is a whole other dimension to the work that I had no idea about up until about a month ago (or whenever it was I started this blog. Maybe it was just a couple of weeks? My sense of time is so different these days). It started with listening to the February podcast of Lisa Renee at Energetic Synthesis (“Self Definition” — transcript here). Denise LeFay has been posting the written form of the audio podcasts for some time, and one day I went to the Energetic Synthesis site and downloaded a few of the recent podcasts, starting with this past December 2011.
Until I read the post I cited here earlier on Make Me a Tinfoil Hat at Denise’s site, I had been unwilling to recognize the role of an alien agenda in my life and in the work of a Lightworker. The starting of this blog signifies that I at least have a foot in the boat. I have not yet totally rowed off the shoreline, but I have my oars in hand, and as soon as I have satisfying “proof” — an inner evidence, if you will — I will start to row. I kind of think I might be already, in fact (haha!). I’m hesitant, though, because I am starting to get a sense of just how much I have been deceived and it is freaking me out.
At the moment I am worried that I have come to the new country where I am living now (I am originally from the US and now live in a major European city, where I have been for almost four years) on false pretenses — that perhaps it was an alien implant and manipulation that led me here. I understand from my previous spiritual experiences and teachings that all can work to the good of one’s life, even the tragedies, once you are aware and have the perspective, and so I believe there has been a “good purpose” for my being here. In fact, I 100% have evidence that my Lightwork has been needed deeply here.
All can work for the good, for the Light, to those who love and are called to its purpose(s).
I know this deeply in my heart.
But I am also disheartened about the pretenses under which I came here because I left two children behind, one who is only just about six-and-a-half. I have not seen him, touched him, breathed in his scent, nor hugged him for four years.
My other son is 15-almost-16 and he and I share a close bond (and Internet access via social media and emailing as well as the phone) which is strong enough to withstand a separation. In fact, I have seen the separation work to great good in his life. I believe he is a Lightworker as well, perhaps an Indigo? A Starseed? I don’t know the terminology that could apply to this Generation Y kiddo, but he is one of “us.” He is doing very important work in my absence in his life, and he and I know it. It all felt “right” to leave him with his dad for his greater learning and work. I don’t like it — I feel I am missing so much of his life, and I am, but I am more at peace with it than I am about my littlest child.
Anyway, I have to get offline soon. But I wanted to have at least some kind of freewritten update of what I am experiencing now. I am doing more and more intake of knowledge, I am accepting each day that there is indeed something akin to an alien agenda running programs here on the planet (god, I still want to tell myself to make the tinfoil hat when I express such things! Paranoid schizo much?! 😉 )
I have found many sites that I hope to link in, on a sidebar, on a post, someplace.
For now, here is something that I listened to on Tuesday from Lisa Renee’s April podcast (a huge thanks to Denise for keeping us readers aware of when her newsletters are ready). It’s excellent material and I encourage people who are motivated to read or listen to it! “Settling Accounts” —-> transcript link here.
(From the section titled “Gridworker Update”)
The Four Corners Area is to be an area of accelerated Extraterrestrial contact, a communication hub and interdimensional port, which will become more prevalent this year and ongoing. Contact is personal at this time due to the extreme fragility of the human mental bodies and explosive dynamics present on earth. However, as mentioned last month, guidelines for positive contact and preparation for those communications, is suggested for Starseeds, that have not been contacted already. Overcoming fear, self-doubt and the tendency to glamourize E.T.’s is critical for successful contact. Some contact will be applied through dream state, telepathy, virtual realities, computer technologies, ufo sighting and some dark arts training is needed to discern and enforce who you allow to communicate with you. Do not accept blindly what anything is telling you, use your 12 D shield, employ boundary testing and appropriate guidelines for establishing rules (on your terms) for contact. [emphasis added]
I’m ready. I am ready to be contacted. I have already been instructed to use some of the techniques in the Tapas Acupressure Technique found at this link: TATLife.com I believe I know the origin of the beings who are going to contact me (Pleiadian — I was given this information, which I somewhat dismissed or forgot about — an implant at work? Or just more 3D transmutation to do? Probably a bit of both — in 2009).
What I feel I need now is to understand how to use a 12D shield, boundary testing, and establishing rules. I’m working on that now.
I would love to write more, but I have to go to the grocery store with my mother-in-law who is visiting my husband and his two kids this week.
HA. So it goes: from 5D thoughts to mundane 3D caring for ourselves in an instantaneous switch of focus, lol.
Be well, live long and prosper. I hope that I can write more of my thoughts very soon.
Ophelia the Muse