Yes, picking the Jodie Foster movie title by my beloved Carl (Sagan. And if anyone ever comes to me and says he is an “ankle biter” I’m going to say “fuck off” because he was a beautiful man, which makes me think of something…)

TOTAL ASIDE: but it has been pissing me off and I need to write about it for a moment.

I saw something on the ‘netz about CS Lewis and Tolkien being part of Team Dark and I seriously felt my heart sink. Really?!?

Okay, so I know Lewis was really big into his Christian faith and Tolkien was a Catholic, but man, that bummed me out reading that. The Chronicles of Narnia saved me as a child, completely gave me something to live for. Those books and ones by Madeleine L’Engle (whom I am 100% convinced was a Lightworker, no doubt in my mind).

I hope that stuff I read was just plain wrong, and if not, that I can get over it quickly!

End of aside.

Okay, the real news of this post is that I believe today I lost my UFO Virginity, at least in my conscious awareness! (Like, I may have seen one before, I just didn’t know what I was looking at. This time, I knew.)

Photo 1

above the trees outside my apartment – click to see original size

I was watching a plane create a chemtrail. The plane was flying at a fairly high altitude from east to west, basically over my apartment. Next thing I saw was this glinty thing.

The crazy thing was I saw one just like it yesterday (Sunday) as I was filming planes and so on out my window, too. But I dismissed it as, uhhh, something glinty hovering around. I saw a bird and a plastic bag caught up in the air later and thought whatever I saw must have been my imagination.

When I saw this one, today, I knew it was not my imagination, and I managed to snap a couple of photos before it disappeared. (I did not actually see it disappear as I was so hung up on taking pics. It was there, hovering, one moment, and the next time I looked, it was gone.)

Zoomed in and edited. Click on pic to make it full-size.

Color-contrasted to show the relative shape of the thing. It was an orb.

I was having a blog comment conversation with blogger Mike at No More Sleeping, whose blog I found at Anne’s site Exopermaculture today. I saw a couple of his photos that were very similar, and seen under similar circumstances. He feels in his case that it was his Pleiadian family checking him out.

I have been wanting to stay neutral, but I got excited thinking that these could be the ones making first contact with me.

Interesting news is that about an hour ago, I had another sighting of a couple of things: an orb, and then what I believe were two fake planes monitoring the area upon its arrival. I was told to go check things out of the window, and when I did, I saw them again. One plane seemed to chase it off, and then a second, triangular “fake plane” (as I have seen them described) flew overhead. Interesting stuff!

I’m keeping my eyes on the skies, my 12D Shield intact and operational, and my discernment on alert!

But I am excited. 🙂

Live long & prosper.


Calliope the Muse

I’m trying the reblog thing out. Please go to the original link, too — see the bottom of the post. I’m listening to Steve Winwood now & crying! Way to bring me back to 18, exactly 26 years ago this month, when this song was topping the charts. And this classic line: “The truth Will set you free, tho at first it may piss you off.” No kidding!

Calliope the Muse (CtM)

Kauilapele's Blog

Well, since this Poof message is so short, the Highlights are essentially that same as what Poof wrote. But no matter.

My sense is, with this “Short and Sweet” post, Poof is telling us that the Grand Transition is right at our feet. (Hey, that’s my sense; it could happen…)


  • Regardless, of the ‘he’s crazy’, ‘never gonna happen’, ‘this is just a cyclical thing’ and ‘the hate monger’ folks the the veil will be parted.
  • As you walk forward from here remember those who remembered you thru this war.
  • Say thanks as you go thru each day in freedom.
  • …there will be a short respite, then the real work will begin. That’s the remaking of everything you see before your eyes.
  • The truth Will set you free, tho at first it may piss you off.


Songwriters: JENNINGS, WILL / WINWOOD, Steve Winwood

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Here We Go

We’re about seven hours away from the re-boot.

If you don’t know what I am talking about, please see here. (I may eventually pay for the upgrade to be able to embed videos, but for now I am a cheapskate and you’re just going to have to go check it out on YouTube. 🙂 )

Oh man, I wish I had all the time and brainpower to be able to sit and coherently describe what has been going on with me!! It has been an amazing couple of weeks with the amounts and kinds of information I have been receiving.

I am discovering tons on YouTube, and also via the 2012Portal and its commenters, related sites, etc. I am finding my place and receiving instructions.

I am also aware that I have been taking nighttime journeys for a long time now!

Here’s one thing I can’t get off my mind.

Last year, I had a very vivid “dream.” I really wish I could remember when it was that it happened! I know it was in 2011, but not even sure what time of year it was. All I know is that my “team” keeps reminding me about it and wants me to write about it now.

I was on board a kind of aircraft, and I remember looking outside of a window, and seeing space and stars. I have recollections of flying on board this craft. With the kind of reading I have been doing, I am recognizing that this was no dream at all, I was really on board that craft.

My inner voice/team guide keeps telling me it’s a Pleiadian craft (although, it seems like everyone and their brother in the woo-woo community insists they are Pleiadian, and there are some pretty weird things coming out of alleged Pleiadians’, uhhhh, “mouths” — “minds” is a better word).

But they insist.

As for tonight’s meditation… If you don’t know what to do, you can go here:

Grid Reboot Visualization

or here

Reboot of the Grid

Find your time and place to be!

Apparently, I am going to be “on-board” wherever it is that I have been going when I am asleep. I guess it is the ship I was on before (ergo the non-stop visualization I’m being given of what happened last year in the “dream”). I was willing to set my alarm for 3:30 am (well, mostly, lol). But I am told that if I am needed to do the visualization, they will wake me up and I will do it. But there is some urgency in the idea that I am needed elsewhere, so I am not going to worry about doing it in the physical 3D. I have a feeling I will be in 5D tonight and working from there.

Jeebus B. Jones. Seriously. Every time I type this shit, I keep thinking about that hat. There are actually online instructions, did you know that?

Make Me a Tinfoil Hat

Hee hee hee hee.

The saving grace in this is that I have to say my team is HILARIOUS. They are so joyful! They crack me up, and the happiness that I feel from them that I am waking up just makes me beam. It’s one way I know that there is something to this all. The sheer hilarity of it is truly buoyant!

Okay, y’all. Places. You know what to do, so go and do it, right-o?


Calliope the Muse


Anyone else feeling completely steamrolled the past 5 days since 5-5-5?

OMG, there are moments I think I am going to pass out or just collapse. I’m not sick, I am pretty sure (okay, maybe a little anemic, but shouldn’t be so much so).

It comes in waves.

I feel like most nights I am off and doing god-knows-what — I was reading on Denise’s site about recon missions (too tired to ‘splain more right now). I swear I am on some kind of nocturnal SWAT team and I am doing major work, kind of like The Avengers in the new movie. EXHAUSTING. No “proof” of that, just the sense that could be what’s going on. Or something like Neo’s training sessions aboard the Nebuchadnezzer in the first Matrix movie. Oy vey. I have a feeling I am no longer training, but warring in the trenches at this point, though.

My lower back is seizing up so hard tonight I can barely stand it. And hoooo boy, the attacks? Mental ones. Ego-based ones. There are creeping insidious thoughts. One I keep thinking about in regards to my husband (a long and complicated story) is “the opposite of love is not hate; it’s indifference.” We have grown into such indifference.That’s all I can say about that right now. But it sucks. He was supposed to have been my “twin flame” and all I sense about the relationship now is that he is my twin flop. Twin flab. Twin FAIL.

It’s bad. It’s at the point where if it was an alien love bite or some other kind of manipulation, it’s exposed and flopping. If in fact he is my TF (or something like that) well then, we are totally under attack and have a major, major block. I know some of it in the 3D explanatory realm are his addictions. He does not drink anymore and he does not surf and collect hardcore porn, but there are replacements for these things. They are just as insidious although a lot more innocent-seeming.

Other than that, I had some terrific news this week. A longtime reader and friend of Denise’s on the site offered to help me with understanding my natal chart about a month ago. I received an email from here that I only just saw last night (after seeing an earlier email, but skipping over a follow-up from her. Chalk it up to my unfamiliarity with Gmail). In the message, she let me know that I have an undeniable connection to the Pleiades. I kinda freaked at that — it was a total bonus confirmation for me. Starseed I am, and while I knew about it over three years ago, I am now embracing it more and more.

And still hardly believing I am down this far deep in all this. Sometimes it, unfortunately, reminds me of when I was a Baptist (haha). But I sure as shit hope that this is the real deal. Else, seriously, someone please just send me to the funny farm.

In all seriousness, I was brainwashed by conservative Christianity 24+ years ago. There are some dear, dear loving people who are people enslaved to that way of thought. It does not seem that way to them, and they will pretty much martyr themselves for the “cause of Christ,” but I saw it for what it was some time ago now. I don’t ever want to be brainwashed that way again, and sometimes I worry that’s what I am doing or engaging in with this stuff, too. I know as a co-dependent, I am susceptible to it.

This feels vastly different in many, many ways; however, in other ways there are “markers” that some of “this” (the whole tinfoil-hat stuff; see past blogs. Again, too tired to get into it now) is the same. How to discern what is what? How to know if the parts of me that sincerely feel like they are just “checking out” of this planet aren’t just some kind of brainwashy enterprise, eh?

I need to see and know some of the goods, dear Pleiadian Team. Yes, the email about my connections to the planet as a Taurus (oh god, don’t ask me to remember or even begin to say what it was about my natal chart was so connected to the Pleiades right now. Maybe I’ll do it later, when I can make more sense of it myself) helped a lot.

Is it too much (or even possible) to ask for something, well, more “concrete” (vis à vis 3D, I guess is what I am getting at)? Should I be careful what I ask for?

Oh, the acceleration of clock times has been helping, too. Numerous 11’s throughout the day, numerous meaningful (to me) patterns as I interact with digital clocks and other things containing numbers. Yeah, those are always good. They are definitely on the rise this week.

But I am, you know, thinking a sighting of some kind or an “encounter” — oh yeah, no. Changed my mind. I definitely don’t want a negative encounter to come of this. *whistling in the dark*

Something warm and fuzzy perhaps? (LOL — yeah, I think all of this is anything but that).

Maybe like when the mirror starts to morph when Morpheus (hahahaha — oh I just got that. “MORPHeus”) gives Neo the red pill. I don’t know if I want to see myself in a pod or anything like that, though.

I know: how about a real life human being who is also into this shit, someone I can meet face-to-face, someone on Team Light, someone who knows what this stuff is and can corroborate. Someone that I know not just online. That would be cool.

Well, I am totally blathering my way through this. This is much more my own personal journal of all this stuff. In no way do I claim to be any kind of *ahem* “spokesperson” for the Pleiadian Team, in case you came here hoping for such. Nope, I am just as confused as the next guy/girl and trying to muddle my way through.


L & L, y’all. Hope you are all holding up. I am, just in a very tired way. And minorly discouraged way. *sigh*

Sleep well (I’m going to sleep now in my time zone).

Calliope the Muse

P.S. I pick Merope to be the Pleiadian planet to be from, just so you know. A ) It rhymes with “Calliope.” (At least I am pretty sure it does. I should confirm.) B ) It is a LOST PLANET! How cool and sci-fi is THAT?! 😉 Over and out.

Confronting Confusion

A follow-up from my previous post based on more information I’ve come into contact with in the past 12 hours or so.

Confronting Confusing Material

When I was reading the comments on Denise LeFay’s site Transitions from the posting on May 4, 2012, I noted that there was some resistance to and confusion with the contents of the particular post. (I’m not going to link it in as I already have one pingback on her comments, and I don’t want to make it seem like I am trying to spam her comments with links to my own posts — just go to the site directly and look for “Lisa Renee’s May 2012 Report” or go to my previous post in which I have linked to Denise’s).


from pamcase

I’m sorry, but Lisa Rene’s articles are way over the top for me. I don’t understand them and they don’t help. I tend to look at all things in my life and ask, ‘does this make me feel better or worse?’ Guess what. I won’t be reading any more of Lisa Renee’s posting. I don’t know how they could make ANYONE feel better. Phew!!

from Jane

These articles give me anxiety because I don’t understand them – it is like reading a scientific paper – the complex language and scenarios..I get to the second or third paragraph and lose interest because it’s not written for my apparently simple brain – therefore I conclude that I must not be ascending…..

thanks Denise for posting – I am probably one of a few who find them hard to read.

I really thought that there was one more comment from a reader who basically wrote that she was “done” with the Lisa Renee articles — that with the May Report, the reader felt it was just too much and was no longer going to read, but going back to the post, I don’t see it now, so perhaps Denise decided to pull that one.

There are currently a couple of more comments that express readers difficulty with the material. In regards to this, Denise left a couple of great responses to commenters pamcase and Jane, as well as Cherie Hebert on that post… Here is the one written to pamcase:

Lisa Renee’s information is for Starseeds and Indigos. Many times much of her (and my) information is NOT for the general public because it is for fellow Starseeds and Indigos here now to transmute and embody energies for the rest of humanity. Because of this some people who read her (or my) articles don’t relate or feel overwhelmed or frightened by the material and/or think she (or I) am “crazy”. The bottom-line is that the information or material is simply not for those people as it’s not their soul work. Just let that sort of material go as it’s not for you nor is it your mission and responsibility. It is however for those of us who are Starseeds and Indigos and that’s why we’re here now. It has nothing to do with feeling better or worse; it’s just about us volunteering to come here and do this energy work is all.

I decided to come back and post again because I indeed watched the entire 12D Shield Building Technique video, but then I re-watched another video that made so much more sense to me this viewing given all the information I have learned since watching it the first time at some point within the past six or so months. It’s the one entitled “Timelines – Energetic Synthesis.”

First of all, like Denise says in her comment to pamcase, Lisa reiterates that there is no value judgement on anyone who does not connect with the information at the video. One only needs to take in that with which the heart resonates, and discard the rest. It’s a typically-heard statement made by people presenting “alternative spirituality” material, but it’s something that has served me well for several years now. Before, when I was an evangelical Christian, I used to swallow whatever was fed to me because I was told it was good for me (I was also in my impressionable 20s); now I know better, and while I still probably fall a little to the side of accepting too much of what I hear or read with too little skepticism (I love having an open mind), I have grown up and now understand it is important to be discerning while one keeps an open mind. I know I have been duped. I know that I have had programs inserted by Team Dark. I know that probably some of the stuff I have been listening to online about aliens and so on may be lies on the part of TD and its agenda (more on that in a moment in the next section). But I also can develop discernment and figure out what to keep and what to throw away.

Second, we all have different jobs and different activation points. Denise pointed this out in the comments of her post, “The devil’s best trick is to persuade you that he doesn’t exist!” (dated March 27, 2012 — again, I already have one pingback there and don’t want to ping too many times. I know that I linked it in on my own post here — No April Fool).

I’d like to just add that some of the ultra fluffie Starseeds are the way they are because their Ascension mission isn’t the same as other Starseeds who are gifted at getting down in the muck n’ mire to transmute it. All Starseeds aren’t, and don’t need to be, transmuters. Some Starseeds work on other aspects almost entirely; others are in the trenches transmuting and getting attacked for transmuting etc. Every Starseed isn’t a plumber nor is every Starseed a roofer etc. We each have our different work and roles to play in this Ascension Process. Some of us just get a lot dirtier than some of the others is all.

“We all have our different work and roles to play…”

So very true!

So, to confront confusion for those who are feeling “left out” by the Lisa Renee posts and who are just not ready to confront the confusion of the workings of Team Dark, well, it honestly could be there is another mission for those people. Not everyone is meant to muck around in the places that TD lurks. In fact, in some ways it might be preferable to stay out of it. There is NO value judgement on that, either! You have to follow where you feel led. However, if you are someone like me, someone who is likely being activated at this very time to work in this area, then perhaps it is important to consider even that which is difficult. Work with it. Investigate the parts that DO make sense. Dig a little deeper because maybe you, too, are about to go online with working at a new job in these new energies of this year. I’m finally ready and activated to get into this, and I realize that I have been well-prepared for doing just this.

Confronting My Own Confusion

Since I decided to come on board and start a blog on what I call the “Woo Woo” side of life (I already blog about way too many other things in other areas, but this is my first where I am letting my full Freak Flag fly), I have been experiencing so much growth in this area of understanding the role of what Denise calls “Team Dark” aka in some circles as “The Powers that Be” (or “Were” since they are on their way out). (I just checked — of course, I started the blog on April Fools Day, lol. Was it ONLY just over a month ago?! Yikes. Okay, the growth has been out of this world, literally, in terms of speed, then!)

What I am beginning to accept is that while this shit is really dark, confusing, and sometimes puts me in doubt because I am not certain of the source(s) of the information I am garnering, in the end, if I HOLD LOVE, HOLD LIGHT, HOLD THE BALANCE, CLEAR MY EGO ISSUES, I am indeed doing the work, and it does not matter what it is that TD throws at me, you know?

Back to the 12D hield. Wellllllll, okay. Here’s the thing. I think to go through that process each morning and each night feels like a bit much. Not that it does not work, but I’m all for shortcuts and just GOING ONLINE with this stuff. I was pleased to read this comment from Sunny on the May 4 Denise post:

interesting I was going to ask about the 12d shield process and came on to re-read this post and comments. This morning when i got home from work still feeling so drained, i just said, “activate my 12d shield” before going to sleep. So i went to the video and remembered seeing it before. It worked just saying to do it because my higher self already knew what to do.

I’m totally with her. When watching the video the second time, I was reminded that I had already *employed* the 12D Shield and used it on a recent morning or evening — I think it was evening — when I needed to surround myself with protection. I’m hooked into something good, hooked into something protective already, and it is 100% available to me at all times; it is really just that I need to remind myself that it is already there! Even just visualizing the picture in the video and understanding where the energy is grounding from, I know inside that I don’t need to go through all the steps, it is just there. Maybe this is contrary to Lisa Renee’s method, and her team would say that it is better to go through everything step-by-step, but I am pretty sure I don’t need to. I guess the proof is in the pudding, and the next time I need it, we’ll see if the way I understand it works or not.

My life situation is really interesting, and I have spent the past couple of weeks wondering, yet again, how it is that I got to where I am, how it is that I am living out my current story in this particular 3D timeline (and also how it is that I am collapsing the other timelines that Lisa Renee speaks about in her May Report).

  • In 2008, just after turning 40, I moved to, well, I’ll go ahead and put this much “out there”: Europe. It was June 4.
  • I left two children in the United States. At the time, they were 12 and 2 1/2 years old.
  • I had been convinced by what I believed was my higher self that I was reuniting with my Twin Flame for healing and transmutation work, and also in essence to “save him” as he was involved in some critical addictions that were literally killing him at the time. I was told I needed to be present to hold the energetic balance in the relationship. (How co-dependent is that? I have since learned that I needed just as much work as he has needed, and learned it has been unhealthy co-dependence in me that has been driving the boat for too long in my life.)
  • In the subsequent almost-four years, I have suffered through some really tough shit, culminating in the suicide attempt of the man I believe(d?) to be my Twin Flame (and whom I married in September 2011). He drank too much in a binge and OD’d on sedatives and sleeping medication, nearly shutting down his liver. This happened on January 11, 2011 (1-11-11. Get outta here, right?!)
  • Good news is, as of now, he is just about 16 months sober, working a recovery program hard, and things have been calm, if weird in other ways (there are still issues driving things with him and with me in his recovery, and I am in the midst of trying to figure it all out).

When I read up on Eve Lorgen’s “Love Bite” information recently, my first impulse was to think, “Oh FUCK ME. I have been the victim of an alien love bite!!! This was no Twin Flame Reunion! This was TD bullshit programmed into me!”

I mentioned this stuff on a previous post a little bit…

As of today and thinking through these issues for the past couple of weeks (and reading Lisa Renee’s May Report), I had an epiphany that in many ways it does not matter. The real point of my work has been to transmute energy, grow my own vibration, and hold love and light. Have I been doing that no matter the source of the information that took me from my children and planted me in a country thousands of miles from my home? Yes.

So really, it’s moot, right? Whatever the source, whatever the place where my being here came from, I got here. I am here in this timeline. It’s what I do with it at this point that matters, and I have realized that it is all working to the good. I think holding this positive perspective in spite of all the shit is exactly what I need to be doing. Not to negate the possibility that the source of the info bringing me here was an alien manipulation. I do think there was very likely a sinister element that ripped me out of my second marriage and my family life I had established. It could also be the source of that ripping was actually a contract or plan I established long before incarnating (that’s what I have been told since 2006).

In any case, I am on a new track with the 2012 energies, and I know it is mostly to hold love and hold light, no matter what. I’ve known that all along, long before I realized how much alien/extraterrestrial nastiness envelops this planet.

I guess what I am saying is that for me to confront the confusion and fear in my own life and my own situation, the answer is still the same:  be love and be light.

Here’s the description for the Lisa Renee video on Timelines I linked in earlier:

A direct transmission to Starseeds and Indigos about our intrinsic role and genetic purpose on the planet as a Consciousness Shifter. It is our group function and role to override negative agendas being promoted through “Alien Software” using fear, destruction and manipulation. This “alien software” is promoting fear and chaos to create massive confusion in the human population in order to attempt to manifest the negative alien timeline. Align to your inner core spirit, become inner and self directed to discover the Sovereignty and Freedom inherent with your direct relationship to God Source. As a Starseed embodies clarity with its own inner core spirit, the spirit is God Technology returning to the earth. That God Technology is accessed in your body as you develop pure witness and observer consciousness without the judgment of negative ego. The Eternal God Spirit is self organizing, self harmonizing and will bring high frequency to stabilize the environment through your awareness held within the inherent capacity of your Starseed DNA. Focus on your inner reality and declare your intention.

Starseeds : Make your Daily Declaration of Intention to resolve the authority problem between your Ego And God Source.

“My declaration of intention is to serve my Source. I commit to serve my highest power, fully completely and totally. I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free!”

I read those last lines and keep thinking of the Anonymous videos I sometimes see on YouTube and their (in)famous signoff:

“Knowledge is free. We are Anonymous. We are Legion. We do not forgive. We do not forget. Expect us.”

But I also feel like invoking a similar line to TD — “Humanity is free. We are Starseeds. We are Sovereign. We are Love. We are God. We have already won.”

Here is how to confront the confusion that TD may throw your way (copied from above): “Align to your inner core spirit, become inner and self directed to discover the Sovereignty and Freedom inherent with your direct relationship to God Source.”

It’s like WikiSourced/collaborated info! Freedom. Sovereignty. It’s so simple. No one from TD can get you if you stay out of fear, and stay aligned with the Source.

Okay, maybe more, but it’s hahahaha — I just looked at the clock and it said “5:11.” Nice. It’s time for me to go and to move on to some other things. I think that the intensity of the past 24 hours for me has lightened somewhat and I feel like I can step away from bed and step away from the computer for a little while to go do some 3D stuff for a while. I think I have reached capacity for the moment.

Stay strong.

Shine your shoes for the fat lady. (Source)

Don’t let the bedbugs bite.


Calliope the Muse

It seemed appropriate to chime in…

… on the day that is a 5-5-5 — May 5, 2012. May = 5, Day 5 = 5, 2+0+1+2 = 5. (Of course I started writing this at about 11:45 at night, so it’s already the 6th as this will post. The intention was there, and it is still the 5th in a lot of places on the planet. 😉 )

If I remember correctly, my numerology “personality number” (the consonants in my birth name) add up to a number 5, too. And my birthday is later this month, the day before the lunar eclipse coming up on the 20th, in fact. And I will be 44. Nice, eh?

I digress.

I have been wanting to write for days now, but between daily living tasks, and traveling, and just being plain exhausted, I have not been able to get a chance to post on all that I am learning.

I have, however, left a couple of comments on the latest Denise LeFay post where she copies in the May Report from Lisa Renee of Energetic Synthesis.  The comments I wrote there explain where I have been at the past couple of weeks (mostly tired, stressed out from traveling down the rabbit hole and emerging into a new zone of understanding, and coping with people who think, probably justifiably, that I am wigging out).

I have finished reading Karla Turner’s books on alien abduction, Into the Fringe and also Taken: Inside the Alien-Human Abduction Agenda, as well as her book with someone named Ted Rice, Masquerade of Angels. (You can find PDF versions of these books for free online. Just Google them. I think I may have linked them into my previous post here as well.)

I have been reading and listening to various sources online about “disclosure” and all that could come in terms of what will be disclosed and when it could happen in regards to government(s) “coming clean” about multidimensional/alien beings.

I have learned about the potential types of alien species present in Earth dealings, and the possible links to the really fringe stuff of the ilk where conspiracy theorists like to tread.

One thing I read that has had a huge impact on me is the June 21, 2004 article found on Barbara Marciniak’s site,, called Emerging from Denial (it’s one of the sample articles from The Pleiadian Times Newsletter). This article comforted me so very much and I appreciated reading it very much. I felt it to be very accurate to my own situation and awakening experience. I was kind of hoping I could do a point-by-point analysis of the things that really connected with me, but the thing is, apparently I am to use the supermoon energy of the Wesak/Buddha moon to try to literally download as much as I can from places online where I have been directed this weekend. The amount of information I’m encountering is staggering, and while I am sure that I am getting a lot of information while I am asleep in the 3D (which was a lot this past week), I also think that those who are leading me down the rabbit hole are wanting me to consciously get this information by more standard 3D means, and this weekend I have had the time to do just that.

I’m watching some interesting videos on YouTube — lots and lots of stuff about disclosure and just how many sightings of unidentified space/aircraft there have been in the past several months, as well as those who are explaining what Lisa Renee speaks of in her May Report, and also along the likes of information presented on David Wilcock’s Divine Cosmos site, too.

Here’s the thing.

I DO absolutely feel totally nutty going down this path. I really do. It’s embarrassing. It’s causing tension with my husband and with my two best Lightworker friends to whom I usually tell just about everything. They are having a hugely hard time with the fact that I am getting into the whole UFO/alien thing, and also conspiracy theories. They feel I am treading into areas that may not be valid and/or should just be left alone (“dark thoughts attract dark entities” kinds of belief).

The thing is, I am having a hard time NOT getting into it! I feel a complete shove from my team, my inner guidance system, and my general interest in this area, too — something that has actually been with me since about the age of 8 (interest in UFOs or other like phenomena).

I was, for many years, also an evangelical Christian and the notion of “spiritual warfare” and the stories of the Old Testament which line up with stories about intergalactic beings — Seraphim and Nephilim, yadayadayada  aka Annunaki or whatever — really make a lot of sense to me. It’s a big deal, but it is not such a big deal. It’s the biggest deal for Earthlings, but then I get the sense that I am not an Earthling, and this stuff is kind of old hat — it’s not something to totally get my panties in a wad over. It’s serious, yes, but not exactly earth-shattering. No pun intended. It is what it is, and I am here to help out with the mess and with the smooth transition to something better.

Aside: The whole story of how I was pulled out of that belief system – Christianity — coordinated very nicely with the timeline presented in Barbara Marciniak’s article, by the way. I came out of Christianity in full between summer of 2004 and November of 2005 (after the Venus transit of 2004). My Kundalini Awakening started in October of 2006, and I first touched upon some of the ideas regarding the “Powers that Were” in 2009, before some mighty intense shit went down in March of that year, and which did not really stop until this past transformation that got kicked off on October 28, 2011 and also over the New Year/Epiphany and then the Spring Equinox. Some things in my 3D world settled down only to have the lid blown off on this whole alien business, and now I feel I am operating on a whole different level of understanding altogether, and not really sure if I am liking what I am exposed to, but feeling the need to learn and not be afraid, and proceed forthwith in understanding how to hold my own with these energies. I’m guessing this is what it really means to have the kind of Lightwork Mission I was meant to have, and I am going with it until it becomes obvious that I should leave it alone, if that is indeed what I need to do.

Next up on my agenda: to learn how to use the 12D shield. I first learned about this more than a month ago, and I have yet to try it out, mostly because it feels like a pain in the ass (guided stuff like has a tendency to bore me and makes me antsy — the daily need to do it feels like such a CHORE). BUT, I totally have already had to call upon those beings who are helping to protect me, and we did create a “bubble of light” for me in one encounter I happened to have in a semi-sleep state. We’ll see what happens. Sometimes I am given my own tools to use in situations like these, while the tools of others do inform me and inform how to proceed. I’ll watch the 12D Shield Video entirely and take it from there. I know it is important when doing work in this area to have adequate coverage and protection, and I would be stupid to not invoke some kind of energy suit for this work. It would be like a firefighter going in naked to fight a fire. So I get the need to do something like this. I’m just hoping that my team and inner guidance system can maybe come up with something specially designed for me and how I like to operate.

I have to go to bed. I knew this would happen: I’d get on here and then get on a roll of things to say and write about. But I have to get a little rest and also finish one video I was in the middle of before being drawn to write something here.

Be well, everyone. Hold on to your hats. Shine your shoes for the fat lady (a J.D. Salinger reference which basically means “show up for work and do your best”) and live long and prosper.

Over and out.

Calliope the Muse